She looked up from a book. "Yes?"

Reardon had expected her to be prettier than she was. He had never really discarded the notion that rich young women were always beautiful. But Melinda Van Allen was not. She was large-boned and slightly overweight. Her hair was coa.r.s.e and unruly, and her face was plain except for a certain fragile softness about the eyes which Reardon * in his present state of mind * instantly took to be a sign of sadness.

"My name is John Reardon. I"m a detective with the New York City Police Department. I"m investigating the killing of the deer your father donated to the zoo." He sat down on the bench beside her. "It"s a pleasant day, isn"t it?"

"Lovely," Melinda said. "Would you like some grapes?" She held out a paper bag.

"No, thank you."

"Now that the boycott is over, I can eat all I want," she said.

Reardon nodded. During the strike in the California vineyards he had quietly boycotted grapes himself.

"I"m very sorry about the deer," Melinda said.

"Do you come to the zoo often?"

"All the time. It"s one of my favorite places. I wanted to be a veterinarian when I was a child."

Reardon smiled. He shoved his hands into his overcoat pockets to protect them from the cold. He noticed that Melinda did not seem to be bothered much by the chill that surrounded them. But her coat was much heavier than his and, of course, she was younger.

"I wanted to be a kind of female Saint Francis," Melinda explained.

"Is that what you"re studying in school," Reardon asked, "veterinary medicine?"

Melinda frowned. "Oh, no, that was just a childhood thing. No, I"m studying art now. I want to be a sculptress. There"s no money in it of course."

That struck Reardon as a curious remark from such a rich young woman, but he kept his opinion to himself.

"But I love it, you see," she said energetically. "It"s a pa.s.sion with me." She looked intently into Reardon"s face. "I think it is important to be pa.s.sionately committed to your work, don"t you, Mr. Reardon?"

"I suppose," Reardon said. "Of course, some jobs don"t call for much pa.s.sion."

"But all jobs should," Melinda said very seriously. "No one should do anything without having a total commitment to it. Total commitment is the key. Don"t you think? Total commitment is the necessary element of total happiness. Without it, there is only frustration and bitterness."

Reardon felt reasonably certain that Melinda had underlined and memorized that remark from something she had read. "Maybe so," he said.

"Have you ever read Carlos Castaneda?" she asked.

"Who?"

"Carlos Castaneda. He"s a sociologist."

"No."

"Well, he had a great experience with Don Juan, an old Indian. And Don Juan says that there are many roads down which a man may travel, but only one of them has a heart."

Reardon did not know what that meant. "Do you know of anyone who might have wanted to hurt the fallow deer?"

Melinda lowered her head. "No," she whispered.

"Any people mad at you or your brother or your father or anything like that?"

"No," Melinda said. "I don"t think any of us have any enemies."

Reardon could not imagine that being true. "Almost everyone makes somebody mad at them sometime," he said.

Melinda did not reply. She popped a single grape into her mouth and began to munch it quietly.

"Miss Van Allen," Reardon said sternly, "we are dealing with someone capable of a more serious crime than the killing of animals."

Melinda turned toward him furiously. "What could be more serious than that?" she demanded.

Reardon was jolted by the question. He looked deeply into Melinda"s face to a.s.sure himself that she was serious, and saw that she was. "The killing of human beings," he said.

"Human beings are only animals," Melinda said, "and animals are just as sensitive as human beings, just as capable of feeling pain and loss. Do you eat meat?"

"Yes," Reardon said, almost defensively.

Melinda smirked. "Well, then. You"re a killer."

Reardon could feel himself growing angry. "Miss Van Allen, I am trying to solve a crime. Someone killed those deer, and whoever it was may have also killed two young women. Two women not much older than yourself."

"I can"t help you," Melinda shot back.

Reardon stood up. "No," he said, "I don"t suppose you can."

As he was about to walk away, Melinda grabbed his hand. "Sit down a minute," she said.

"Why?" The fierceness with which she held his hand suggested to Reardon that she might have something important on her mind. He did not try to pull away.

"Please," she said.

Reardon sat down again beside her and watched carefully as her face relaxed. It was as if she were using her face, positioning it for maximum effect. Everything around her * the cold, the gray sidewalk lined on either side by strips of dead brown gra.s.s the black-lacquered bars of the animal cages * everything seemed to accentuate Melinda"s face, and as Reardon peered at it, waited for her to speak, it seemed the only thing in the park that was really alive.

"How do you feel right now?" Melinda asked. "Inside, in your emotions, right this second?"

"Miss Van Allen, I am trying to find a person who is killing things, animals and maybe people."

Melinda smiled sweetly. "I know that," she said, "but how do you feel, right now, right this second?"

Reardon paused. She was staring at him intently, fixedly, and it came out before he could stop himself. "Alone," he said.

"Why?"

Reardon felt ridiculous, but he answered her anyway. "Well, for one thing, my wife died recently."

"Are you mourning her?"

"Naturally."

"Have you ever read much Buddhist philosophy?"

Reardon was growing impatient, regretting that he had mentioned Millie"s death. Such things, things like mourning, he had always considered to be very private, no one else"s business. "No," he said.

"Oh, you should!" Melinda exclaimed excitedly. "There is a story in Buddhist philosophy about a woman who lost her husband to death, and she just could not stop mourning for him. She was simply incapacitated by her grief. She went to see the Buddha, and the Buddha said for her to make a potion out of a few very common herbs. But he said that the herbs must be gathered from households in which no one had ever died, in which there had never been a death."

Reardon nodded.

"Well, the woman could not find a single household where there had not been a death."

Reardon looked at Melinda blankly.

"Well, don"t you see?" she said. "The woman learned that everyone has grief, everyone experiences the death of loved ones, relatives and husbands; but everyone learns to bear it. And so could she."

Reardon stood up and handed Melinda his card. "If you come upon any information that might help me in finding the person who killed the deer, call me."

"But don"t you see?" Melinda asked, almost pleadingly.

"Keep that card," Reardon said, and he turned and walked away.

When he reached the street above the zoo, the story of the Buddha was still on Reardon"s mind. But he could not understand how the knowledge that everyone suffers could possibly ease the suffering of anyone.

10.

"We can"t find a G.o.dd.a.m.n thing," Mathesson told Reardon as he walked through the doors of the precinct house. "We"ve searched that apartment like a swarm of bees looking for honey and there"s not an address to be found anywhere."

"Did you check the phone book again?" Reardon asked.

"Yeah. Nothing. Absolutely nothing. It"s like those two girls were found in a hotel room on another planet. It"s like they just got into New York the night they got wasted and didn"t know anybody, not a single person in the whole city."

Reardon turned back toward the doors to the street.

"Where are you going?" Mathesson asked.

"I"m going to check out where they worked."

"You want some company?"

Reardon could see that Mathesson was looking at him worriedly, appraising him, trying to determine if he was still fit enough to be a homicide detective. "No," he replied, "you go ahead with your other cases. I"ll handle it."

Tristan Designers looked to Reardon like a chic setup. The walls of the foyer were covered with mahogany paneling, and everything else looked as if it was either plated with gold or upholstered in silk.

"May I help you, sir?" the receptionist asked, and it was clear from the abrupt tone of her voice that Reardon did not resemble anyone she thought might have serious, legitimate business there.

He took out his detective"s shield. "My name is John Reardon. I"m investigating the murder of one of your employees. I"d like to talk to whoever supervised Miss Ortovsky."

"That would be Helene Pynchon," the receptionist said. "You"d like to talk with her now?"

Reardon gazed patiently at the receptionist. "Well, two women have been murdered," he said.

"Yes. Yes, of course," the receptionist said. "Just a moment, please. Please have a seat over there. I"ll call Miss Pynchon right away." She sounded to Reardon a lot like his son"s secretary, a person who spent her life protecting somebody who wouldn"t use the same toilet she did.

When Helene Pynchon walked out into the foyer her appearance did not surprise Reardon. She was tall and dark-haired with thin, pale arms. She was dressed in a loose-fitting pastel blouse and a long skirt. Reardon guessed her age at approximately forty-five. She looked like hundreds of other women Reardon had seen and faintly desired as they walked along Park Avenue or Central Park West.

"Good afternoon," she said pleasantly as Reardon rose from his chair. "I"m Helene Pynchon."

"My name is Reardon. I"m investigating the murders of Karen Ortovsky and her roommate. Is there someplace we could talk?"

"Of course. Come into my office, won"t you."

In her office Miss Pynchon offered Reardon a chair and seated herself behind the desk.

"Now," she said, "how can I help? We were so upset when we found out about Karen this morning. Her death, I mean."

"Did you know her very well?"

"Not very. Only professionally. She did excellent work at Tristan."

"Did you ever see her socially?"

"No. Never. It was purely a professional a.s.sociation. I make it a point never to have personal relationships with anyone on my staff."

Reardon nodded. He didn"t go out with the mayor much either. "How about anybody else on your staff?" he asked. "Did she have any close friends here?"

Miss Pynchon thought a moment. "I believe she and Laura Murray had a nonprofessional relationship."

"Nonprofessional? You mean they saw each other away from work?"

"Yes, I believe so."

"Do you know of anybody else who might have been a friend of Miss Ortovsky?"

Miss Pynchon shook her head. "No, I don"t know of anyone else. Laura might know, however."

"I"d like to see her."

"Surely," Miss Pynchon said. "Take a right at the end of this hall. Laura"s office will be the fourth one on your left."

When Reardon entered her office Laura Murray was busily sketching designs on a pad of unlined paper. Her desk was covered with dress patterns, pencils and pieces of cloth. They seemed to flow over the desk like wax down the sides of a melting candle.

"Laura Murray?" Reardon asked.