Book 1: Chapter 154: Gorgeous Lipstick Laden With Grief

Lily looked at these clothes and his breathing quickened. A deep sense of longing came from the bottom of his heart. He even had a little imperceptible expectation for these clothes.

He hurriedly closed the sliding door with a blush and dared not look at it again.

Of course, it was natural for boys to blush and their heartbeat quicken when they see so many s.e.xy women’s clothes. That means his soul was still a normal boy, right? Lily unknowingly said to himself.

He turned around and looked at the table which looked like a dresser table. He went to the cushion that apparently looked like it was for women and sat down. He silently opened the jewelry1 box. It was full of exquisite jewelry. Many of these jewelries had designs in the shape of stars, moon and clouds, and so on. They didn’t look as complicated compared to the ancient jewelry of Lily’s original world. Most of the designs were simple but were charming and had a unique artistic concept.

“These jewelries will definitely look beautiful after putting them on.”

Lily didn’t like overly fanciful jewelry. Elegant and simple jewelry was more suitable for him. Besides, his hair was a little longer now…

“Ah? No! No! What am I thinking! Now that I am a guy now, it’s strange to think of any jewelry here.”

Lily closed the drawer containing the jewelry and opened the top drawer. Excluding perfumes and blushers, many exquisite cosmetics were inside. Each and every one of them was placed in an ancient and beautiful box.

There was also a small metal tube that shined with a moonlight l.u.s.ter. It was about the length of the thumb. It was cylindrical. There were exquisite patterns carved on it. The entire tube was shiny but it was brighter than silver. It should be made of platinum-like metal.

Platinum was very rare in the Heian Empire. Curiously, Lily picked it up and found that there was a thin slit in the middle that could be opened. Lily turned it slightly, opened the cap and saw that there was a fascinating cherry lipstick in it.

Lipstick? So lipsticks exist in the Heian Empire? I thought they only have lip balms and the like?

No, this mirror s.p.a.ce seemed to be quite different from other places of the Heian Empire. It may not be something that belonged to the Heian Empire.

It was just…

It was such a beautiful lipstick. If he applied it on his lips, it would look beautiful…

Inadvertently, Lily took out the lipstick, looked into the mirror and applied it on the lips that were already slightly shiny.

“Ah?”

Lily was stunned and stared blankly at the slender fingers holding lipstick to his mouth in the mirror.

“What am I doing?” “I’m a guy now! Applying lipstick or something… I am not doing it on my own free will!”

Lily jumped up from the table and threw the beautiful and bright lipstick on the table as if it was a foul beast.

He ran to the front of the wall and opened the sliding doors one by one. Unexpectedly, inside them contained s.e.xy, elegant, and even some charming clothes.

“Why, why!”

Lily opened the last sliding door again and froze.

Inside it, there were all kinds of lingeries and even bras that were not available in this world. Moreover, the sizes of bras were divided into several layers. Although the bras on the top layer were very cute and s.e.xy, they were very narrow and small. Obviously, they were for wearers with very small b.r.e.a.s.t.s. They would never fit his senior sister!2

“Why… why are these things placed here? Why is there such a room in this mirror s.p.a.ce?”

Lily ran out of the room in a panic and leaned against the corner of the wall, gasping heavily.

Obviously he was a boy but he was still turning excited by those beautiful clothes!

In reality, dressing up, fondness of shopping, and wishing to appear beautiful were attributes that influence women’s bodies.

But even if I look like a girl now, I am still a man. Why do I have such desires!? Why?

Lily’s small face tilted to one side, his messy hair hung limply as he exhaled.

Why would a boy feel thrilled when upon seeing s.e.xy and revealing women’s clothing? Why was he so excited to apply the bright lipsticks? Why did the small and beautiful bras seem to be tailor-made for him?

“Why do I feel…”

The things that were in that room were dangerous!

Lily planned not to enter that room anymore. Anyway, there were no secrets related to senior sister inside. There were only strange suits and cosmetics that made him confused.

Lily didn’t think about it anymore. He went back to senior sister’s room and knelt down in front of the senior sister’s bed. Although he didn’t have any clue about how to awaken senior sister, he still had things to say.

“Senior sister, Lily has made great progress recently. I believe that I will be able to take you home soon. Um… I’ll start from the beginning…”

Lily talked about his adventures, ascension, and experiences during these times with senior sister. It was said that the words of relatives and lovers could wake people who were in a coma for a long time. Although Lily knew that Rinne’s current situation was completely different from a coma, he still wanted to try. At the same time, he liked senior sister so he wanted to talk to her more.

After all, the mirror s.p.a.ce wasn’t something where one could enter at will.

“So… senior sister, although that woman took advantage of Lily, but…”

When it came to what happened between her and Uesugi Rei’s, Lily couldn’t continue his words.

I am not insincere, I didn’t give her my consent… Lily couldn’t say these words. “Senior sister, Lily knows that he is wrong. When Lily returns, he will punish himself for his unfaithfulness. Senior sister, please forgive Lily.”3

However, no matter what Lily said, senior sister didn’t reply. Lily did not know whether she could hear him or not. Lily knelt down in front of senior sister and held her hand.

“Senior sister, let Lily stay with you for a while. However, Lily couldn’t stay here all the time. Lily has to train. Lily has to travel and take risks. He has to go to Heian capital to find a way to wake up senior sister.”

Lily’s face rested on senior sister’s white yukata. Although he was in a soul form, he still shed tears. Lily’s little worries and hesitation were nothing compared to senior sister who slept alone in this cold and dark place.

“Senior sister, Lily wants to uphold his dignity as a boy at least in front of you. However, Lily won’t let this self-blame and confusion affect his training. Because in the world of Heian, Lily is in a girl’s body after all. He should not be stumped by the so-called gender dysphoria. Although I do wish to show up in front of you as a boy by the time you wake up and hold your hand. —But, in order to rescue you from this dark and cold place, no matter what I have to give up, I will not hesitate! Senior sister, Lily will get going now… I need to dedicate my all into training before we can realize that dream!”

Lily stood up and walked to the door but then he suddenly realized; how do I leave this place?4

He didn’t know how to leave, just as he didn’t know how he came inside.

1. Robinxen: Apparently the American spelling won the vote. There you have it, the ungrateful colonials have ruined yet another English word. It’s okay jewellery, I won’t misspell you.
2. Robinxen: Dundundun. Maybe you can take a pair of Nanako? Or they’re all micro-lingerie…..?
3. Robinxen: I don’t know if I should praise them or call them an idiot.
4. Robinxen: You’re TRAPPED!