None of the household, scarcely even Mrs. Frost, seemed at first to be able to believe that Lord Fitzjocelyn could really have hurt himself seriously. "Again!" was the first word of every one, for his many slight accidents were treated like crying "Wolf;" but Frampton himself looked perfectly pale and shocked when he perceived how the matter really stood; and neither he nor Lord Ormersfield was half so helpful as Mrs. Frost. The shock only called out her energy in behalf of her darling, and, tender as her nature was, she shrank from nothing that could soothe and alleviate his suffering; and it did infinitely comfort him, as he held her hand and looked with affection into her face, even in the extremity of pain.
Fain would others have been the same support; but his father, though not leaving him, was completely unnerved, and unable to do anything; and Mrs. Ponsonby was suffering under one of the attacks that were brought on by any sudden agitation. Mary, though giddy and throbbing in every pulse, was forced to put a resolute check on herself--brace her limbs, steady her voice, and keep her face composed, while every faculty was absorbed in listening for sounds from her cousin"s room, and her heart was quivering with an anguish of prayer and suspense.
Could she but hide her burning cheeks for one moment, let out one of the sobs that seemed to be rending her breast, throw herself on her knees and burst into tears, what an infinite relief it would be! But Mary had learnt to spend her life in having no self.
CHAPTER VI.
FAREWELLS.
What yet is there that I should do, Lingering in this darksome vale?
Proud and mighty, fair to view, Are our schemes, and yet they fail, Like the sand before the wind, That no power of man can bind.
ARNDT, Lyra Germanica.
Dynevor Terrace was said to have dark, damp kitchens, but by none who had ever been in No. 5, when the little compact fire was compressed to one glowing red crater of cinders, their smile laughing ruddily back from the bright array on the dresser, the drugget laid down, the round oaken table brought forward, and Jane Beckett, in afternoon trim, tending her geraniums, the offspring of the parting Cheveleigh nosegay, or gauffreing her mistress"s caps. No wonder that on raw evenings, Master James, Miss Clara, or my young Lord, had often been found gossiping with Jane, toasting their own cheeks as well as the bread, or pinching their fingers in her gauffreing machine.
Yet, poor little Charlotte Arnold learnt that the kitchen could be dreary, when Mrs. Beckett had been summoned to nurse Lord Fitzjocelyn, and she remained in sole charge, under Mrs. Martha"s occasional supervision. She found herself, her household cares over all too soon, on a cold light March afternoon, with the clock ticking loud enough for midnight, the smoke-jack indulging in supernatural groans, and the whole lonely house full of undefined terrors, with an unlimited s.p.a.ce of the like solitude before her. She would even have been glad to be sure of an evening of Mrs. Martha"s good advice, and of darning stockings! She sat down by the round table to Mr. James"s wristbands; but every creak or crack of the furniture made her start, and think of death-watches. She might have learnt to contemn superst.i.tion, but that did not prevent it from affecting her nerves.
She spread her favourite study, The Old English Baron, on the table before her; but the hero had some connexion in her mind with Tom Madison, for whom she had always coveted a battle-field in France. What would he feel when he heard how he had filled up his course of evil, being well-nigh the death of his benefactor! If any one ought to be haunted, it would a.s.suredly be no other than Tom!
Chills running over her at the thought, she turned to the fire as the thing nearest life, but at the moment started at a hollow call of her own name. A face was looking in at her through the geraniums! She shrieked aloud, and clasped her hands over her eyes.
"Don"t make a row. Open the door!"
It was such a relief to hear something unghostly, that she sprang to the door; but as she undid it, all her scruples seized her, and she tried to hold it, saying, "Don"t come in! You unfortunate boy, do you know what you have done?"
But Tom Madison was in a mood to which her female nature cowered. He pushed the door open, saying authoritatively, "Tell me how he is!"
"He is as ill as he can be to be alive," said Charlotte, actuated at once by the importance of being the repository of such tidings, and by the excitement of communicating them to one so deeply concerned. "Mr.
Poynings came in to fetch Mrs. Beckett--he would have no one else to nurse him--and he says the old Lord and Missus have never had their clothes off these two nights."
"Then, was it along of them stones?" asked the lad, hoa.r.s.ely.
"Yourself should know best!" returned Charlotte. "Mr. Poynings says "twas a piece of rock as big as that warming-pan as crushed his ankle!
and you know--"
"I know nothing," said Tom. "Master kept me in all day yesterday, and I only heard just now at Little Northwold, where I"ve been to take home some knives of Squire Calcott"s. Master may blow me up if he likes, but I couldn"t come till I"d heard the rights of it. Is he so very bad?"
"They"ve sent up to London for a doctor," pursued Charlotte. "Mr.
Walby don"t give but little hope of him. Poor young gentleman, I"m sure he had a good word from high and low!"
"Well! I"m gone!" cried Tom, vehemently. "Goodbye to you, Charlotte Arnold! You"ll never see me in these parts more!"
"Gone! Oh, Tom! what do you mean!"
"D"ye think I"ll stay here to have this here cast in my face? Such a one as won"t never walk the earth again!" and he burst out into pa.s.sionate tears. "I wish I was dead!"
"Oh, hush, Tom!--that is wicked!"
"May be so! I am all that"s wicked, and you all turn against me!"
"I don"t turn against you," sobbed Charlotte, moved to the bottom of her gentle heart.
"You! you turned against me long ago. You"ve been too proud to cast one look at me these three months; and he forgot me; and that"s what drew me on, when who cared what became of me--nor I neither now."
"Don"t speak that way! Don"t say "twas pride. Oh no! but I had to behave proper, and how should I keep up acquaintance when they said you went on--unsteady--"
"Aye, aye! I know how it is," said poor Tom, with broken-down humility: "I was not fit for you then, and I"m next thing to a murderer now; and you"re like a white dove that the very fingers of me would grime. I"ll take myself out of your way; but, let what will come of me, I"ll never forget you, Charlotte."
"Oh, wait, Tom! If I could but say it right!--Oh! I know there"s something about biding patiently, and getting a blessing--if you"d only stop while I recollect it."
"I thought I heard voices!" exclaimed Mrs. Martha, suddenly descending on them. "I wonder you aren"t ashamed of yourselves, and the family in such trouble! Downright owdacious!"
"Be this your house?" said Tom, stepping before Charlotte, his dejection giving way instantly to rude independence.
"Oh, very well," said Martha, with dignity. "I know what to expect from such sort of people. The house and young woman is in my charge, sir; and if you don"t be off, I"ll call the police."
"Never trouble your old bones!" retorted Tom.
"Good-bye to you, Charlotte;" and, as in defiance of Martha, he took her pa.s.sive hand. "You"ll remember one as loved you true and faithful, but was drove desperate! Good-bye! I"ll not trouble no one no more!"
The three concluding negatives with which he dashed out of the house utterly overwhelmed Charlotte, and made her perfectly insensible to Mrs. Martha"s objurgations. She believed in the most horrible and desperate intentions, and sobbed herself into such violent hysterics that Miss Mercy came in to a.s.sist--imagined that the rude boy had terrified her, misunderstood her shamefaced attempts at explanation, and left her lying on her bed, crying quietly over her secret terrors, and over that first, strangely-made declaration of love. The white dove! she did not deserve it, but it was so poetical! and poor Tom was so unhappy! She had not time even to think what was become of her own character for wisdom and prudence.
The next morning, between monition and triumph, Martha announced that the good-for-nothing chap was off with a valuable parcel of Mr.
Calcott"s, and the police were after him; with much more about his former idle habits,--frequenting of democratic oratory, public-houses, and fondness for bad company and strolling actors. Meek and easily cowed, Charlotte only opened her lips to say she knew that he had taken home Mr. Calcott"s parcel. But this brought down a storm on her for being impertinent enough to defend him, and she sat trembling till it had subsided; and Martha retreating, left her to weep unrestrainedly over her wild fancies, and the world"s cruelty and injustice towards one whom, as she was now ready to declare, she loved with her whole heart.
The bell rang sharply, knocks rattled at the front door! She was sure that Tom had been just taken out of the river! But instinct to answer the bell awoke at the second furious clattering and double pealing, which allowed no time for her to compose her tear-streaked, swollen face, especially as the hasty sounds suggested "Mr. James."
Mr. James it was, but the expected rebuke for keeping him waiting was not spoken. As he saw her sorrowful looks, he only said, low and softly, "Is it so, Charlotte?" In his eyes, there could be but one cause for grief, and Charlotte"s heart smote her for hypocrisy, when she could barely command her voice to reply, "No, sir; my Lord has had a little better night."
He spoke with unusual gentleness, as he made more inquiries than she could answer; and when, after a few minutes, he turned to walk on to Ormersfield, he said, kindly, "Good-bye, Charlotte; I"ll send you word if I find him better:" and the tears rose in his eyes at the thought how every one loved the patient.
He was not wrong. There was everywhere great affection and sympathy for the bright, fantastic being whom all laughed at and liked, and Northwold and the neighbourhood felt that they could have better spared something more valuable.
The danger was hardly exaggerated even by Charlotte. The chill of the long exposure had brought on high fever; and besides the crushed ankle, there had been severe contusions, which had resulted in an acute pain in the side, hitherto untouched by remedies, and beyond the comprehension of the old Northwold surgeon, Mr. Walby. As yet, however, the idea of peril had not presented itself to Louis, though he was perfectly sensible. Severe pain and illness were new to him; and though not fretful nor impatient, he had not the stoicism either of pride or of physical indifference, put little restraint on the expression of suffering, and was to an almost childish degree absorbed in the present. He was always considerate and grateful; and his fond affection for his Aunt Catharine, and for good old Jane, never failed to show itself whenever they did anything for his relief; and they were the best of nurses.
Poor Lord Ormersfield longed to be equally effective; but he was neither handy nor ready, and could only sit hour after hour beside his son, never moving except to help the nurses, or to try to catch the slightest accent of the sufferer. Look up when Louis would, he always saw the same bowed head, and earnest eyes, which, as Mrs. Ponsonby told her daughter, looked as they did when Louisa was dying.
The coming of the London surgeon was an era to which Louis evidently looked anxiously, with the iteration of sickness, often reckoning the hours till he could arrive; and when at last he came, there was an evident effort to command attention.
When the visit was over, and the surgeon was taking leave after the consultation, Fitzjocelyn calmly desired to know his opinion, and kept his eyes steadily fixed on his face, weighing the import of each word.
All depended on the subduing the inflammatory action, in the side; and there was every reason to hope that he would have strength for the severe treatment necessary. There was no reason to despond.
"I understand--thank you," said Louis.
He shut his eyes, and lay so still that Mrs. Frost trusted that he slept; but when his father came in, they were open, and Lord Ormersfield, bending over him, hoped he was in less pain.