Chapter 635 - A Mother’s Thoughts 3
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(Benladann POV III)
Drake managed to seal Benladra"s ice magic because he said it could be the most dangerous, it has the power to pierce through things easily with large spears made of ice, so it is not something that she can handle that well, and because he has some sort of power that lets him absorb ice, he created a rune with it and stuck it into Benladra, it absorbs any ice magic that comes out of her, so she cannot conjure it anymore unless he lets her.
However, the other elements she can use… they might prove to be difficult to stop. The other day she was using light magic, but it wasn"t anything crazy. She was using it to scribble in the empty air, it left beautiful rays of light that dissipated slowly over the air, so she began drawing stuff.
On one occasion she even drew herself with her parents, us. It was very cute… So we let her do whatever she wanted.
Unlike the breath attack that was also a beam of light, her other light magic seems very non-aggressive, so we have been observing her do it, but aside from the scribbles or the light bulbs that she uses to illuminate things, it seems like a good magic that doesn"t harm.
And then there is her Heaven Magic… Benladra has three Unique Skills because she"s a reincarnated person. Ah, that"s a whole other topic that we had been talking with Drake lately, but after some time we dropped the issue.
Apparently, just like the two of us, Benladra is a reincarnated soul. But… she"s not someone that could be said to be an adult, her mind is still that of a kid, perhaps slightly more intelligent at most. I believe this is because… much like Drake also believed, she died when she was very young.
Maybe she died around the age of half a year, or a year… where children are more developed than babies, but very much still a baby.
Just thinking about my little baby being someone that died in her previous life, and that she might remember that if she got Unique Skills… it really pains me to think about it. And if she died so young, it was certainly not by natural causes.
What kind of thing did she went through? Did she got sick of something? Or… something else ended happening to her? what kind of fate did my daughter went through?
I… wish I could know. Even as painful as it might be.
But perhaps it is better to not know.
Drake had already checked her dreams, which he says is where a person shows their true colors, but the only thing he found inside these dreams were fluffy and colorful things that babies, and children dream about.
So she was indeed a young girl back then… or boy. I don"t know… but she was indeed a young child.
I fear that the traumas of such a death might come to bite her in the back at some point, but as her mother, I will stay at her side and try to protect her as much as I can.
We need to give her all the comfort she deserves, and to always make sure to make her happy, to make her fulfilled, and to make her feel protected and loved, that"s the most important thing, I believe.
I will protect my beloved daughter form the harshness of her past and also of this new reality. This world is dangerous but if we keep away from danger, we might be able to enjoy our lives… I know there are things like Greenwood left unresolved, but now that we got her, we have forgotten about pursuing any danger for the moment until she was to grow up a bit more.
I like to find some challenges, but raising a child is enough challenge for me, I believe, and that"s more than we can handle, so we don"t need any more concerns for the moment.
Just like Drake had said to me, Benladra had now become our world, and we have to do everything around her, well, that"s how parents do it. You grow up as a person thanks to your parents, they take care of you, they feed you, they love you… they dedicate their entire lives to raise you into someone that can one day walk on their own two feet and continue moving forward in life.
Perhaps some people didn"t had such a privilege, but for he majority of people that were raised by their parents, such a thing is a fact…
In my previous life, I wasn"t raised by my parents. I don"t really remember if I even had any. I just remember hat one day I woke up and I was already an experiment, a guinea pig for some strange thing, the Mold, which ended becoming part of me in this second life.
But now… I have been raised by my parents in my second life, even though I faced many challenges along the way, I can say that I had a happy life and quite fulfilling at that as well, of course, at the end, I ran away in fear that the Mold would end up consuming my parents and everyone I loved…
In that time I felt lost, but Drake found me… and well, that"s where everything started again.
And now, here we are, so long since then, and even with a child, this is clearly quite insane when I think about it in perspective. It had been so fast, yet it felt so slow.
Well, perhaps because a day inside of Fuyu are two due to its time dilation ability…
Anyways, I also want to give my daughter all the love that my parents gave to me, so she can grow happily and strong.
This world is unforgiving after all, so we have to make sure that she grows stronger both physically and mentally… And that also depends in our love to her, and how we raise her…
Benladra… Mama love you more than anything in this world.
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