But what his whole being impelled him to, was to throw himself upon his knees before her like a boy, to lay his face upon her little hands which rested open upon her lap, and to cry to her that there were hours when he could bear no more. And could it have been that if he had so done she would have bent her dear head and wept-for her voice, when she answered him, had surely tears in it.
"I will not let him think so," she said. "A heart as full of gentleness and warmth as his must not be chilled. I will use all my power. Your Grace has much to do about the Queen at this time of disturbance and cabal. Her Grace of Marlborough"s angers, the intrigues of Harley and St. John, the quarrels of Mrs. Masham, make such a turmoil that you, whom her Majesty loves, must be preoccupied." She laid a hand softly upon her breast. "He will believe all that I say," she said. "His kindness is so great to me."
"He loves you," said my lord Duke, his voice low and grave. "You are so generous and n.o.ble a lady to him."
"He is so generous and n.o.ble a husband," my Lady Dunstanwolde answered. "He thinks I need but ask a favour to find it granted. "Twas because he thinks so that he begged me to myself speak with you, to ask you to come to Warwickshire next week when we go there. I-have asked you."
"With most sweet graciousness," my lord Duke answered her. "That I myself will tell him." And then he stepped to her side and lifted the fair hand and kissed it very reverently, and without either speaking another word he turned and went away.
"But I do no wrong," he groaned to himself as he walked in a private room of his own house afterwards. "I do no wrong if I go not near her-if I have no speech with her that is not formal courtesy-if I only look on her when she does not know that I am near. And in seeing her, in the mere beholding of her dear face, there is a poor comfort which may hold a man from madness-as a prisoner shut in a dungeon to perish of thirst, might save himself from death if he found somewhere in the blackness a rare falling drop and could catch it as it fell."
So it befel that many a time he saw her when she was in nowise aware of his nearness. All her incomings and outgoings he found a way to learn, when she left town for the country, and when she returned, what fetes and a.s.semblies she would attend, at what Court gathering she would shine, at which places it would be possible that he might mingle with the crowd and seem to be but where "twas natural he should appear, if his presence was observed. To behold her sweep by in her chariot, to feel the heart leap which announced her coming, to catch a view of her crimson cheek, a fleeting glance and bow as she pa.s.sed by, was at least to feel her in the same world with himself, to know that her pulse was beating still, her deep eyes still alight, her voice still music, and she a creature of love, though not for himself.
His Grace of Marlborough, returning to England after Malplaquet, himself worn with the fierce strain of war, tossed on the changing waves of public feeling, one hour the people"s idol the next doubted and reproached, was in such mood as made him keen of perception and of feeling.
"Years mark changes in a man, my lord Duke," he said when first they talked alone, "even before they line his face or pale his bloom of health. Since we met you have seen some hours you had not seen when I beheld you last. And yet"-with ironic bitterness-"you are not battling with intrigues of Court and State, with the ingrat.i.tude of a nation and the malice of ladies of the royal bedchamber. "Tis only the man who has won England"s greatest victories for her who must contend with such things as these."
"Mrs. Masham has no enmity against me," said Osmonde. "I have no power she would take from me."
"And no wife she would displace about the throne," his Grace added. "The world waits to behold your d.u.c.h.ess still?"
""Tis I who wait," said Osmonde, gravely.
There was a pause, and while it lasted, Marlborough gazed at him with a thought dawning in his eye.
"You have seen her," he said at last, in a low voice.
Osmonde remained silent. A moment before he had risen, and so stood. The man who regarded him experienced at the moment a singular thing, feeling that it was singular, and vaguely asking himself why. It was a sudden new realisation of his physical perfection. His tall, great body was so complete in grace and strength, each line and muscle of it so fine a thing. In the workings of such a physical being there could be no flaw. There was such beauty in his countenance, such strength and faithful sweetness in his firm, full mouth, such pure, strong pa.s.sion in the deeps of his large, kind, human eye. The handsomest and the tallest man in England he might be, but he was something more-a complete n.o.ble human thing, to whom it surely seemed that nature should be kind, since he had so honoured and done reverence to the gifts she had bestowed upon him. "Twas this his ill.u.s.trious companion saw and was moved by.
"You have seen her," he said, "but-since you wear that look which I can read-something has come between. Had you two bared hearts to each other for but one hour, as "twas ordained you should, you would stand before me so happy a man that none could pa.s.s you by and not turn to behold again the glow of the flame of joy burning within your soul."
My Lord Duke of Osmonde drew a long, deep breath as he listened, looking down upon the ground.
"Yes," he said, ""twould have been so."
But he spoke no further on the subject, nor did his Grace of Marlborough, for suddenly there came to him a certain memory-which was that he had heard that the beautiful wild creature who had set Gloucestershire on fire had made a great marriage, her bridegroom being the Earl of Dunstanwolde, who was the Duke of Osmonde"s kinsman. And it was she he himself had felt was born to mate with this man, and had spoke of it in Flanders, finding my lord Duke had seen her at a distance but had not encountered her in any company. And at last it seemed that they had met, but not until she had given herself to another.
That night as he drove homeward after an interview with the Queen at Kensington his coach rolled through a street where was a great house standing alone in a square garden. "Twas a house well known for its size and ma.s.sive beauty, and he leaned forward to glance at it, for no other reason than his remembrance that it was the home of his lordship of Dunstanwolde, that fact, in connection with the incident of the morning, wakening in him a vague interest.
""Tis there she reigns Queen," he said, "with her old lord worshipping at her feet as old lords will at the feet of young wives and beauties. Poor gentleman-though she is kind to him, they say. But if "twere the other man-Good G.o.d!" As he uttered the exclamation he drew back within the coach. "Twas long past midnight and the lights of Dunstanwolde House were extinguished, but in the dark on the opposite side of the street there walked a tall figure wrapped in a long cloak.
"There is no other gentleman of such inches and so straight," his Grace said. "Good Lord! how a man can suffer in such case, and how we are all alike-schoolboys, scullions, or Dukes-and must writhe and yearn and feel we are driven mad, and can find no help but only to follow and look at her, yards away, or crush to one"s lips a rag of ribband or a flower, or pace the night away before her darkened house while she lies asleep. He is the finest man-thing I have ever known-and yet there is no other way for him-and he will walk there half the night, his throat full of mad sobs, which he does not know for sobs, because he is not woman but tortured man."
Many a night the same figure had walked there in the darkness. As his great friend had said, there was no other way. His pain had grown no less, but only more as the months pa.s.sed by, for it was not the common pain of a man like others. As he was taller, stronger, and had more brain and heart than most, he had greater and keener pangs to do battle with, and in the world he must at intervals be thrown across her path and she across his, and as he had been haunted by talk and rumours of her in the years before he was haunted now. "Twas but natural all should praise to him his kinsman"s wife, sure that he would feel pleasure when he heard her lauded.
Women, especially such as are great ladies, have not at their command, if they hide pain in secret, even the refuges and poor comforts possessed by men. They may not feed their hungry souls by gazing at a distance upon the beloved object of their heavy thoughts; they cannot pace the night through before a dwelling, looking up as they pa.s.s at the darkened windows behind which sleeps-or wakes-the creature their hearts cry to in their pain; tears leave traces; faces from which smiles are absent, eyes from which light has fled, arouse query and comment. My lord has a certain privacy and license to be dull or gloomy, but my lady cannot well be either without explaining herself, either by calling in a physician or wearing mourning, or allowing the world to gain some hint of domestic trouble or misfortune.
Her ladyship of Dunstanwolde was surely a happy woman. Having known neither gayety nor luxury in her girlhood, it seemed now that she could give her lord no greater pleasure than to allow him to surround her with both.
"She is more dazzling than they said," my Lord Marlborough thought, watching her at the tragedy one night, "but she carries with her a thought of something she would forget in the gayeties of the world."
The Duke of Osmonde sate in his own box that night and in the course of the play went to his kinsman"s for a few moments and paid his respects to her ladyship, who received him graciously. This his Grace of Marlborough beheld but did not mark her soft quick aside to him.
"May I ask your Grace"s aid?" she said. "Look at my lord. His kindness to me will not let him own that he is ailing. He will not remain at home from these festivities because he knows I would remain with him. I beg you persuade him that he is wrong and but makes me unhappy. Your Grace will do this?"
"Your Ladyship may trust me," was his answer. "Twas then that his Grace of Marlborough saw him turn from her with a bow and go to sit by her husband, who, "twas indeed true, looked this night older than his years, and was of an ivory pallor and worn. "Twas at this time the Duke marked that there stood upon the stage among the company of men of fashion, idlers, and young fops sitting and lounging there, a man attired in peach-coloured velvet, whose delicacy of bloom, combining itself with the fair curls which fell upon his shoulders, made him look pale and haggard. He was a young man and a handsome one, but had the look of an ill liver, and as he stood in a careless, insolent att.i.tude he gazed steadfastly and with burning eyes at my Lady Dunstanwolde.
"There is somewhat devilish in his air," his Grace thought. "It is some dissolute dandy in love with her and raging against her in his soul. Heaven"s grace! how she sits and gazes past his impudent face with her great eyes as if he were not a living thing! She will not see him, and he cannot force her to it, she so holds herself in hand."
My Lord Dunstanwolde gave heed to his kinsman"s affectionate appeals and counsellings with the look of a man tenderly moved.
"Has my dear lady asked you to talk with me?" he said. ""Tis but like her generous observance of me. She has cautioned me most tenderly herself, and begs me to leave the gayeties of town and go with her to the country, where she says we will be happy together and she will be my nurse."
"She will be happier with you at Dunstan"s Wolde than she can be here, where she is concerned about your health," returned Osmonde. "That I can see plainly. The whirl of town festivities but torments her when she sees you worn and pale."
"Yes," answered my lord with a very tender smile, "I am sure it is true, and there is one lovely young lady with the world at her feet who is heavenly sweet enough to give her youth and bloom willingly to the care of an old husband."
""Tis to the care of n.o.ble tenderness and love she is willing to give herself," said Osmonde. "She is a Woman-a Woman!"
His lordship of Dunstanwolde turned and looked at him with a curious interest.
"Gerald," he said, ""tis singular that you should speak so, though you say so true a thing. Only a few weeks since he and I spoke of yourself, and her own words of you were those: "He is a Man-he is a Man. Nay, he is as G.o.d meant Man should be." And she added that if men were so, there would be women great enough to be their mates and give the world men like them. And now-you are both right, Gerald; both right. Sometimes I think-" He broke his sentence with a sigh and began quick again. "I will obey you," he said; "after the a.s.sembly we hold next week we will go to Dunstan"s Wolde. You will be with us that last night, Gerald?"
Osmonde bowed, smiling. "Twas to be a great a.s.sembly, at which Royalty would be entertained, and of such stateliness and ceremony that his absence would have been a thing to be marked.
"Her ladyship has chided me for giving so great an entertainment," said the Earl. "She is very quaint in her play at wifely scolding. Truth is, I am an uxorious husband, and before we leave town would see her a last time all regal and blazing with her newest jewels; reigning over my hospitalities like a Queen. "Tis a childish thing, no doubt, but perhaps-perhaps-" he broke his sentence again with a sigh which he changed to a smile. "You will be there," he said, "and you will understand the meaning of my weakness."
On the night of this great a.s.sembly at Dunstanwolde House, Mr. Hammond, my lord Duke"s confidential secretary, and the Comptroller of his household, sate late over his accounts. He was his Grace"s attached servant, and having been in his service since he had left the University had had time and opportunity to develop a strong affection for him, and a deep and even intimate interest in his concerns. "Twas not alone an interest in the affairs of his estate, but in himself and all that touched or moved him. This being the case he also, as well as a greater man, had marked a subtle change in his patron, though wherein its nature lay he could scarcely have described even to himself.
"He is not so calm a creature," he had said to himself, striving to make a.n.a.lysis of what he thought he saw. "He is not so happy. At times when he sits in silence he looks like a man doing battle with himself. Yet what could there be for such as he to combat with?"
He had thought of this very thing when he had seen his Grace pa.s.s to his coach which was to bear him to the entertainment at his kinsman"s house. The man, who had grown used to silent observance of him, had seen in his face the thing he deplored, while he did not comprehend it.
At midnight he sate in his room, which adjoined his Grace"s study, and in which he was ever within call.
""Tis a thing perhaps none but a woman could understand," he said to himself in quiet thought.
The clock began to strike twelve. One-two-three-four-five-six-
But the rest he did not hear. The coach-wheels were to be heard rolling into the courtyard. His Grace was returning. Mr. Hammond rose from his work, prepared to answer a summons should he hear one. In but a few minutes he was called and entered the adjoining room.
My lord Duke was standing in the centre of the apartment. He looked like a man who had met with a shock. The colour had fled from his countenance, and his eyes were full of pain.
"Hammond," he said, "a great and sudden calamity has taken place. An hour ago my Lord Dunstanwolde was struck down-in the midst of his company-by a fatal seizure of the heart."
"Fatal, your Grace?" Mr. Hammond e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.ed.
"He did not breathe after he fell," was my lord Duke"s answer, and his pallor became even more marble-like than before, as if an added coldness had struck him. "He was a dead man when I laid my hand upon his heart."