Originally posted on RBKTR Translations.
Author: Yi Zhi Da Yan (一隻大雁).
Translated by: Yujuan.

10.

I was a little shocked.

He"s actually taking it hard because of this, what"s happened with him? Does he think I"m turning my back on him? But I"ve never ignored him!

It must be because the way I"m expressing my love is not straightforward enough.

I decided to make up for the morning kiss, thereby telling him I loved him.

But why does the way he"s looking at me seem so odd?

I kept on contemplating on how to evoke his desire to live during my afternoon nap.

Then I heard the barking of the dog.

I opened the door and saw the whole place covered in dust, and he stood in the center of the living room head with his face filled with dust, a frantically barking little limping dog by his feet.

He frantically explained to me that the vacuum cleaner had malfunctioned.

My tidy living room was gone, I couldn"t help but be a little angry.

He said: I was planning on doing a major cleaning before you woke up.

I"m still really… 

Wait a minute, he"s never taken the initiative to clean the house, why is he… 

Could it be that he thinks that he already has a defect, and he"s worried that I"ll turn my back on him, which is why he thought of undertaking all the housework?

I cannot get angry.

He"s already trying his best, I cannot give him a blow, I have to acknowledge his hard work.

I breathed in deeply to pacify my emotions, then said to him with a smile: It"s okay, I"ll do it.

He looked really startled.

I started sweeping the living room, and he followed closely behind me, as forlorn as a little wife.

I was a little anguished.

That night he called take-out.

I was still thinking about how to comfort his wounded, frail little heart, when the delivery guy pressed the bell.

He had ordered sauteed lamb kidney, sesame paste lamb kidney, grilled lamb kidney and wolfberry lamb kidney with garlic chives.

…Isn"t he afraid of excessive internal heat?!

I know that there"s a folk legend about lamb kidney being able to supplement the kidney, but being impatient isn"t very good.

In short, I still haven"t succeeded in giving him a sense of security.

It"s all my fault.

But I don"t know what to do, after thinking all about it, I could only clap his shoulder, saying to him: I won"t break up with you.

He looked really agitated, his eyes even br.i.m.m.i.n.g with tears.

Pitiful little thing.

I absolutely must not lose my temper at him anymore.