Originally posted on RBKTR Translations.
Author: Yi Zhi Da Yan (一隻大雁).
Translated by: Yujuan.

17.

I suddenly felt that this was all very laughable.

I understand now, he"s not a cross-dresser, he"s tailing me, dressing up like that was all because he was afraid of me recognizing him.

He ran in fearfully, standing before me, a little frenetic, seemingly wanting to explain to me.

After that instance of anger went by, I suddenly felt that he was really pitiful.

He wasn"t like this in the past.

He"s always had faith in me, and absolutely wouldn"t act in such an unusual manner.

Just how much does he lack a sense of security that he chose to tail me?

I cannot blame him.

I was too busy in these few days that I hadn"t spoken with him, dumping him and the dog at home, the time spent at home so little.

He"s already extremely self-abased due to his physiology defect, let alone a situation like this happening to him.

This is all my fault.

But yet I do not know just how to persuade him to let go of this meaningless worry.

I paced a few rounds around the house.

I understand, that when a problem arises between two people, we ought to face it directly, and not circle around it.

With that, I asked him: Are you worried about me cheating on you.

He was really fl.u.s.tered.

I understand now.

My guess was as expected correct.

This little dummy, is he really worried that I"ll discard him?

I explained my relationship with my boss, and he looked really astonished.

Has he never thought about this? The one I love is him as a person, not anything else.

Although his expression looked a little odd, in any case he didn"t seem worried anymore, and since he wasn"t worried it was all fine. He nodded with all his might at me. I thought about it, and told him we would go to the hospital tomorrow in the morning. 

If it was me, I would have lost my temper early on because of this matter, I definitely wouldn"t agree to visit the hospital so calmly for a defect that"s so hard to speak about.

He nodded his head at me incessantly, looking a little agitated.

He"s really cute.

How can I not love him.