Christophe had entire confidence in Grazia: he gave into her hands the secret of his inmost thoughts. And yet there was a room in his heart of which he kept the key: it contained the memories which did not belong only to himself, but to those whom he had loved. He kept back everything concerning Olivier. His reserve was not deliberate. The words would not come from his lips whenever he tried to talk to Grazia about Olivier.
She had never known him....
Now, on the morning when he was writing to his friend, there came a knock on the door. He went to open it, cursing at being interrupted. A boy of fourteen or fifteen asked for M. Krafft. Christophe gruffly bade him come in. He was fair, with blue eyes, fine features, not very tall, with a slender, erect figure. He stood in front of Christophe, rather shyly, and said not a word. Quickly he pulled himself together, and raised his limpid eyes, and looked at him with keen interest. Christophe smiled as he scanned the boy"s charming face, and the boy smiled too.
"Well?" said Christophe. "What do you want?"
"I came," said the boy....
(And once more he became confused, blushed, and was silent.)
"I can see that you have come," said Christophe, laughing. "But why have you come? Look at me. Are you afraid of me?"
The boy smiled once more, shook his head, and said:
"No."
"Bravo! Then tell me who you are."
"I am...." said the boy.
He stopped once more. His eyes wandered curiously round the room, and lighted on a photograph of Olivier on the mantelpiece.
"Come!" said Christophe. "Courage!"
The boy said:
"I am his son."
Christophe started: he got up from his chair, took hold of the boy"s arm, and drew him to him; he sank back into his chair and held him in a close embrace: their faces almost touched; and he gazed and gazed at him, saying:
"My boy.... My poor boy...."
Suddenly he took his face in his hands and kissed his brow, eyes, cheeks, nose, hair. The boy was frightened and shocked by such a violent demonstration, and broke away from him. Christophe let him go. He hid his face in his hand, and leaned his brow against the wall, and sat so for the s.p.a.ce of a few moments. The boy had withdrawn to the other end of the room. Christophe raised his head. His face was at rest: he looked at the boy with an affectionate smile.
"I frightened you," he said. "Forgive me.... You see, I loved him."
The boy was still frightened, and said nothing.
"How like you are to him!" said Christophe.... "And yet I should not have recognized you. What is it that has changed?..."
He asked:
"What is your name?"
"Georges."
"Oh! yes. I remember. Christophe Olivier Georges.... How old are you?"
"Fourteen."
"Fourteen! Is it so long ago?... It is as though it were yesterday--or far back in the darkness of time.... How like you are to him! The same features. It is the same, and yet another. The same colored eyes, but not the same eyes. The same smile, the same lips, but not the same voice. You are stronger. You hold yourself more erect: your face is fuller, but you blush just as he used to do. Come, sit down, let us talk. Who sent you to me?"
"No one."
"You came of your own accord? How do you know about me?"
"People have talked to me about you."
"Who?"
"My mother."
"Ah!" said Christophe. "Does she know that you came to see me?"
"No."
Christophe said nothing for a moment; then he asked:
"Where do you live?"
"Near the Parc Monceau."
"You walked here? Yes? It is a long way. You must be tired."
"I am never tired."
"Good! Show me your arms."
(He felt them.)
"You are a strong boy.... What put it into your head to come and see me?"
"My father loved you more than any one."
"Did she tell you so?"
(He corrected himself.)
"Did your mother tell you so?"
"Yes."
Christophe smiled pensively. He thought: "She too!... How they all loved him! Why did they not let him see it?..."
He went on:
"Why did you wait so long before you came?"
"I wanted to come sooner. But I thought you would not want to see me."