"Beg pardon?" (Her face was the same as before the tears.)

"Go to bed. There"s a bed made for you inside on the sofa."

"But--the team--I must----"

"What?"

"The team. I left it at the camp. I must look to it."

"Oh! Well, Brighten will ride down and bring it up in the morning--or send the half-caste. Now you go to bed, and get a good rest. The boy will be all right. I"ll see to that."

I went out--it was a relief to get out--and looked to the mare. Brighten had got her some corn* and chaff in a candle-box, but she couldn"t eat yet. She just stood or hung resting one hind-leg and then the other, with her nose over the box--and she sobbed. I put my arms round her neck and my face down on her ragged mane, and cried for the second time since I was a boy.

* Maize or Indian corn--wheat is never called corn in Australia.--

As I started to go in I heard Brighten"s sister-in-law say, suddenly and sharply--

"Take THAT away, Jessie."

And presently I saw Mrs Brighten go into the house with the black bottle.

The moon had gone behind the range. I stood for a minute between the house and the kitchen and peeped in through the kitchen window.

She had moved away from the fire and sat near the table. She bent over Jim and held him up close to her and rocked herself to and fro.

I went to bed and slept till the next afternoon. I woke just in time to hear the tail-end of a conversation between Jim and Brighten"s sister-in-law. He was asking her out to our place and she promising to come.

"And now," says Jim, "I want to go home to "m.u.f.fer" in "The Same Ol"

Fling"."

"What?"

Jim repeated.

"Oh! "The Same Old Thing",--the waggon."

The rest of the afternoon I poked round the gullies with old Brighten, looking at some "indications" (of the existence of gold) he had found.

It was no use trying to "pump" him concerning his sister-in-law; Brighten was an "old hand", and had learned in the old Bush-ranging and cattle-stealing days to know nothing about other people"s business. And, by the way, I noticed then that the more you talk and listen to a bad character, the more you lose your dislike for him.

I never saw such a change in a woman as in Brighten"s sister-in-law that evening. She was bright and jolly, and seemed at least ten years younger. She bustled round and helped her sister to get tea ready. She rooted out some old china that Mrs Brighten had stowed away somewhere, and set the table as I seldom saw it set out there. She propped Jim up with pillows, and laughed and played with him like a great girl. She described Sydney and Sydney life as I"d never heard it described before; and she knew as much about the Bush and old digging days as I did. She kept old Brighten and me listening and laughing till nearly midnight.

And she seemed quick to understand everything when I talked. If she wanted to explain anything that we hadn"t seen, she wouldn"t say that it was "like a--like a"--and hesitate (you know what I mean); she"d hit the right thing on the head at once. A squatter with a very round, flaming red face and a white cork hat had gone by in the afternoon: she said it was "like a mushroom on the rising moon." She gave me a lot of good hints about children.

But she was quiet again next morning. I harnessed up, and she dressed Jim and gave him his breakfast, and made a comfortable place for him on the load with the "possum rug and a spare pillow. She got up on the wheel to do it herself. Then was the awkward time. I"d half start to speak to her, and then turn away and go fixing up round the horses, and then make another false start to say good-bye. At last she took Jim up in her arms and kissed him, and lifted him on the wheel; but he put his arms tight round her neck, and kissed her--a thing Jim seldom did with anybody, except his mother, for he wasn"t what you"d call an affectionate child,--he"d never more than offer his cheek to me, in his old-fashioned way. I"d got up the other side of the load to take him from her.

"Here, take him," she said.

I saw his mouth twitching as I lifted him. Jim seldom cried nowadays--no matter how much he was hurt. I gained some time fixing Jim comfortable.

"You"d better make a start," she said. "You want to get home early with that boy."

I got down and went round to where she stood. I held out my hand and tried to speak, but my voice went like an ungreased waggon wheel, and I gave it up, and only squeezed her hand.

"That"s all right," she said; then tears came into her eyes, and she suddenly put her hand on my shoulder and kissed me on the cheek. "You be off--you"re only a boy yourself. Take care of that boy; be kind to your wife, and take care of yourself."

"Will you come to see us?"

"Some day," she said.

I started the horses, and looked round once more. She was looking up at Jim, who was waving his hand to her from the top of the load. And I saw that haggard, hungry, hopeless look come into her eyes in spite of the tears.

I smoothed over that story and shortened it a lot, when I told it to Mary--I didn"t want to upset her. But, some time after I brought Jim home from Gulgong, and while I was at home with the team for a few days, nothing would suit Mary but she must go over to Brighten"s shanty and see Brighten"s sister-in-law. So James drove her over one morning in the spring-cart: it was a long way, and they stayed at Brighten"s overnight and didn"t get back till late the next afternoon. I"d got the place in a pig-muck, as Mary said, "doing for" myself, and I was having a snooze on the sofa when they got back. The first thing I remember was some one stroking my head and kissing me, and I heard Mary saying, "My poor boy!

My poor old boy!"

I sat up with a jerk. I thought that Jim had gone off again. But it seems that Mary was only referring to me. Then she started to pull grey hairs out of my head and put "em in an empty match-box--to see how many she"d get. She used to do this when she felt a bit soft. I don"t know what she said to Brighten"s sister-in-law or what Brighten"s sister-in-law said to her, but Mary was extra gentle for the next few days.

"Water Them Geraniums".

I. A Lonely Track.

The time Mary and I shifted out into the Bush from Gulgong to "settle on the land" at Lahey"s Creek.

I"d sold the two tip-drays that I used for tank-sinking and dam-making, and I took the traps out in the waggon on top of a small load of rations and horse-feed that I was taking to a sheep-station out that way. Mary drove out in the spring-cart. You remember we left little Jim with his aunt in Gulgong till we got settled down. I"d sent James (Mary"s brother) out the day before, on horseback, with two or three cows and some heifers and steers and calves we had, and I"d told him to clean up a bit, and make the hut as bright and cheerful as possible before Mary came.

We hadn"t much in the way of furniture. There was the four-poster cedar bedstead that I bought before we were married, and Mary was rather proud of it: it had "turned" posts and joints that bolted together. There was a plain hardwood table, that Mary called her "ironing-table", upside down on top of the load, with the bedding and blankets between the legs; there were four of those common black kitchen-chairs--with apples painted on the hard board backs--that we used for the parlour; there was a cheap batten sofa with arms at the ends and turned rails between the uprights of the arms (we were a little proud of the turned rails); and there was the camp-oven, and the three-legged pot, and pans and buckets, stuck about the load and hanging under the tail-board of the waggon.

There was the little Wilc.o.x & Gibb"s sewing-machine--my present to Mary when we were married (and what a present, looking back to it!). There was a cheap little rocking-chair, and a looking-gla.s.s and some pictures that were presents from Mary"s friends and sister. She had her mantel-shelf ornaments and crockery and nick-nacks packed away, in the linen and old clothes, in a big tub made of half a cask, and a box that had been Jim"s cradle. The live stock was a cat in one box, and in another an old rooster, and three hens that formed cliques, two against one, turn about, as three of the same s.e.x will do all over the world. I had my old cattle-dog, and of course a pup on the load--I always had a pup that I gave away, or sold and didn"t get paid for, or had "touched"

(stolen) as soon as it was old enough. James had his three spidery, sneaking, thieving, cold-blooded kangaroo-dogs with him. I was taking out three months" provisions in the way of ration-sugar, tea, flour, and potatoes, &c.

I started early, and Mary caught up to me at Ryan"s Crossing on Sandy Creek, where we boiled the billy and had some dinner.

Mary bustled about the camp and admired the scenery and talked too much, for her, and was extra cheerful, and kept her face turned from me as much as possible. I soon saw what was the matter. She"d been crying to herself coming along the road. I thought it was all on account of leaving little Jim behind for the first time. She told me that she couldn"t make up her mind till the last moment to leave him, and that, a mile or two along the road, she"d have turned back for him, only that she knew her sister would laugh at her. She was always terribly anxious about the children.

We cheered each other up, and Mary drove with me the rest of the way to the creek, along the lonely branch track, across native-apple-tree flats. It was a dreary, hopeless track. There was no horizon, nothing but the rough ashen trunks of the gnarled and stunted trees in all directions, little or no undergrowth, and the ground, save for the coa.r.s.e, brownish tufts of dead gra.s.s, as bare as the road, for it was a dry season: there had been no rain for months, and I wondered what I should do with the cattle if there wasn"t more gra.s.s on the creek.

In this sort of country a stranger might travel for miles without seeming to have moved, for all the difference there is in the scenery.

The new tracks were "blazed"--that is, slices of bark cut off from both sides of trees, within sight of each other, in a line, to mark the track until the horses and wheel-marks made it plain. A smart Bushman, with a sharp tomahawk, can blaze a track as he rides. But a Bushman a little used to the country soon picks out differences amongst the trees, half unconsciously as it were, and so finds his way about.

Mary and I didn"t talk much along this track--we couldn"t have heard each other very well, anyway, for the "clock-clock" of the waggon and the rattle of the cart over the hard lumpy ground. And I suppose we both began to feel pretty dismal as the shadows lengthened. I"d noticed lately that Mary and I had got out of the habit of talking to each other--noticed it in a vague sort of way that irritated me (as vague things will irritate one) when I thought of it. But then I thought, "It won"t last long--I"ll make life brighter for her by-and-by."

As we went along--and the track seemed endless--I got brooding, of course, back into the past. And I feel now, when it"s too late, that Mary must have been thinking that way too. I thought of my early boyhood, of the hard life of "grubbin" and "milkin" and "fencin" and "ploughin" and "ring-barkin", &c., and all for nothing. The few months at the little bark-school, with a teacher who couldn"t spell. The cursed ambition or craving that tortured my soul as a boy--ambition or craving for--I didn"t know what for! For something better and brighter, anyhow.

And I made the life harder by reading at night.