And so, when I left the Sentinel a few minutes later, I intended to go directly home. Then, quite unexpectedly, a powerful urge overtook me, a need, strange as it seemed, to be near Dora, feel her presence physically, as if, in some demented way, I wanted to a.s.sure myself that she was real. And so I turned, almost without willing it, like a figure on a music box, and headed toward her cottage.

When I reached it, I could see a yellow light burning in Dora"s bedroom window. I saw nothing else until she suddenly glided past the window, her body draped in a dark red robe. From my place among the trees, I saw her bend forward to blow out the candle on the table beside her chair. At that instant, the robe slipped from her shoulders, and I glimpsed her back, the deep scars that gouged it. In the silence, I heard her voice, Because it"s never happened to you. Words that should have come to me in warning, but formed a siren song instead.

Chapter Sixteen.

A song that was still echoing in my mind six months later when I pulled up to my father"s house, the old man a spectral figure now, lost in grief and intoxication.

He sat in the parlor, the same closed room where we"d placed my brother"s coffin, the smell of funeral flowers still faintly in the air, along with the scent of my father"s whiskey. The drapes had been drawn since Billy"s death. It seemed to me that the shadows in which he sat hour after hour had by then come to possess my father, that he"d chosen to be entombed within them, as dead as his murdered son.

"Any luck, Cal?" he asked wearily.

"Not much."

"Who"d you talk to?"

I gave him the names of the people I"d spoken with since beginning my search for Dora.

"Preston Forbes?" my father asked. "He wouldn"t be any help."

"No one was."

He took a sip of whiskey. "The G.o.ds use us for their sport, Cal."

He seemed to fear that any less mythical speculation might overwhelm him, compel him toward some desolate land where even the cla.s.sical and biblical references that had anch.o.r.ed him for so long would prove no more than windblown straw.

And so he preferred to focus on the small details of Billy"s death, revisiting them continually.

"There must have been a lot of blood," he said.

"Yes."

"Stabbed in the heart. That would explain so much blood."

Billy had actually been stabbed in the chest, the blade pa.s.sing smoothly between two ribs, then into the soft tissue of his left lung. He"d pulled the knife out himself, then tossed it across the petal-strewn floor.

"Terrible," my father muttered.

I saw my brother on his back, eyes open, glaring, a hand lifting toward me, his blood gathered beneath him, so that he seemed to float on a thick red stream.

"Terrible," my father repeated. He tightened his fingers around the gla.s.s. "His eyes were open," he said as he brought the gla.s.s to his lips.

"Yes, they were."

He lowered his head briefly, then lifted it. "William was high-strung."

At Billy"s funeral he"d stood stoically in his black suit, his eyes fixed on the granite tombstone as if it were the accuracy of the dates carved upon it that really mattered, the cold precision with which they recorded the all-too-brief circuit of my brother"s life.

"Like his mother." He pondered this, then added, "Emotional. Dora brought his emotions to a head. He was so taken with her."

"He didn"t know her."

His eyes cut toward me, struck by the firmness of my last remark. "Did you know her, Cal?"

In an instant, she was before me, staring at me blazingly, as she had on that last night, I can"t, Cal. I can"t.

"No one knew her, Dad."

He studied me briefly, his eyes very still. Then he said, "T.R. came by."

"I thought he might."

"He said he"d had a word with you this afternoon. He had some questions for you, he said. He didn"t like the answers you gave him."

"They"ll have to do."

My father leaned forward unsteadily. "He"s worried about you, Cal. About what you"re doing. Tracking her down. I"m worried too. The way you look. I don"t want to lose another son."

"I"m going after her," I said.

"How can you do that, Cal?" He didn"t seem surprised, only doubtful of my success. "You have nothing to go on. No way to find her."

"I"ll go to New York first," I told him. "To where she lived before she came here."

"And do what?"

"Find something maybe. A direction."

"What if you don"t find one?"

"Then I"ll head west."

"West," my father repeated softly. "Because of that book you found."

"It"s the only lead I have."

To my relief, my father asked nothing more about my plans. Instead, it was a favor he wanted.

"If you find her, Cal, don"t hurt her. William wouldn"t have wanted you to hurt her." He took another sip from the tumbler, letting the whiskey"s warmth draw him toward oblivion. "He loved her. Remember that. He loved her with all his heart. He"d expect you to do the right thing."

In my mind, I saw my brother as he"d faced me at the final moment, heard his one-word question: Cal?

My father lowered his head, his mind churning briefly before it threw up a reference. "She was like Mephistopheles," he said when he looked up again. "Not always in h.e.l.l, but always of it. A born deceiver. A thief. A liar." His eyes bore into me. "You could smell brimstone in her hair."

And in mine, I thought.

"Seduced him," my father muttered bitterly. "Made him fall in love with her. Then stole from him. Stabbed him in the heart." Something in his mind sparked through the approaching stupor. "T.R. thinks she didn"t do it by herself."

"He told you that?"

"Thinks she had an accomplice."

I shifted restlessly, eager now to be on my way.

"He thinks there was another man in Dora"s life," my father persisted. "Besides William."

"There was only one man in Dora"s life," I told him.

"T.R. thinks William might have gotten wind of it. This other man."

My brother"s question taunted me: Is it you?

My father nodded blearily, giving up on the idea that it would ever be solved, that he would ever know the source of his son"s death, the dark collusion from which it had sprung. "When are you leaving?" he asked.

"Tomorrow morning."

He made no objection to my going. "I"ll miss you, Cal" was all he said.

It was only a short drive to my mother"s house, the farewell I owed her before my departure.

Emma was surprised when she saw me at the door.

"Is Mother sleeping?" I asked.

Emma waved me inside. "She don"t sleep like she used to. Maybe you can ease her."

The only one who could ease her, I thought, is dead.

She lay on her back, dressed in a white nightgown, her hair a silver curtain in the lamplight. Her blue eyes fell upon me as I came into her room.

I took her hand. "I"ll be away for a little while," I told her.

She gazed at me without expression.

"Not too long, I hope," I added.

She remained entirely motionless, grief like a weight slowly crushing her to death.

"She"s "bout stopped talking," Emma told me. "Mostly just stares out the window. Looking for something."

Her dead son, I thought. The full substance of her hope and joy.

"Where you headed, Mr. Chase?" Emma asked.

"I"m not sure," I said.

My mother"s eyes flared. "Cal?"

I leaned toward her. "I"ll be back soon," I promised. She struggled to lean forward, ran out of strength, and drifted back. Her lips moved but no sound came. After a time, she closed her eyes. Seconds later they fluttered open again. "William," she whispered, her eyes fixed upon me. "William loved you, Cal."

I saw my brother"s eyes as he"d gazed at me in the final moments. "I know," I said.

"Loved you ... Cal," my mother repeated. I took her hand.

"And you loved him," my mother added.

I felt something squeeze together deep inside me, like fingers around the handle of a knife.

"You would have saved him if you could," my mother said. "But I ..." She lurched forward, eyes glistening. "I..."

"Try to sleep," I told her softly.

She drew in a labored breath, offered no resistance as I pressed her back into her pillow.

I left her, locked in silence, a few minutes later, went directly home and packed a valise, intent upon leaving Port Alma as quickly as I could. But I found I couldn"t leave without making one more visit. And so, for a little while, I walked through the bare rooms of Dora"s house, careful not to glance at the stain that swept out from the place where my brother"s body had lain. In the bedroom the chair still remained by the window, the pillow propped up against its wooden back, the imprint of her body still pressed into it, a ghostly form that gave no sign of where she"d fled.

When I"d had enough, I walked to my car and drove to my house. For a few minutes, I paced about my study, sometimes halting to peer at one of my drawings, follow a sketched wall across a frozen field. Then I poured myself a final drink, knocked it back pleasurelessly. I could feel nothing but the tumult of the past few weeks, could conceive of nothing beyond them but my search for Dora. For a moment, I felt myself shrink to a tiny, aching center of anger and regret. I saw my brother"s body, splattered with blood. And Dora, pale and unsmiling, her eyes upon me as fiercely as they"d been at our last meeting, her words no less virulent: We can"t do this.

At first light, I strode to my car and tossed my valise into the seat behind me. As I pulled away from my house, it seemed fitting that I was traveling light, stripped of everything but a few clothes and some money, the book Dora had left behind, along with the only purpose left to me now, an order endlessly repeated in my mind: Find her.

The snow had stopped and a clear blue sky hung above me as I drove out of Port Alma, noting the seawall where Billy and I had spent so many hours, the stone jetty we"d run along as boys, he forever in the lead, always happiest, it seemed to me now, at its very edge. I saw him in his final moments, sprawled across the wooden floor, his eyes growing dim as they stared wonderingly into mine, his question carried on a faint breath: Cal?

My answer had sounded only in my mind.

Because there"s something you don"t know.

Part Four.

Chapter Seventeen.

In New York, I found a hotel just off Broadway. It was small and intimate, its lobby adorned with plaster statues of Greek figures and lit by a modest chandelier. It was the sort of place where a.s.signations no doubt took place, and there might have been a time when I could have imagined Dora and me meeting here, deciding what to do, how to do it, finding a way that did not end in murder.

"Sir?"