Chapter 1464: Waiting 5 Years for Someone who Never Returned
Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios
Yun An walked along the riverside of the townhouse alone. There was a man-made river here, built very quietly, with large areas of flowers and gra.s.ses connected together. The environment was really good.
Li Chen came over and stood below a street lamp. He looked at him quietly.
Yun An stopped walking. He had been avoiding Li Chen and trying not to meet him, especially after suspecting that Li Chen was Big Brother Gu, as he felt some kind of guilt and fear. He kept thinking about how he should face Li Chen.
Does he love Li Chen?
Does Li Chen love him?
“Why do you keep avoiding me?” Li Chen approached him and broke the silence. Yun An was about 3 cm shorter than him. When they stood up, they were about the same height.
Yun An was slimmer, and he stood very upright while Li Chen was more like a clothes hanger. Li Chen was more fit than Yun An.
“I am not avoiding you,” Yun An said, not wanting to admit that he was hiding from him at all. After seeing him with Fifth Brother, he did not feel good. Although he knew he was a good friend of Big Brother Gu, maybe he misunderstood their relations.h.i.+p. Yet, he still felt a little unhappy.
Li Chen watched intently and thought about Gu Xingchen’s words at the hospital that day.
If you play with fire, you have to bear with the consequences.
He had his reasons and also promises that he could not help but keep. He also had things that he had to do.
“Yun An, are you blaming me?”
“No,” Yun An said. “What for? It’s not your fault if you don’t love me. Loving Big Brother Gu proves that you have good taste. There’s nothing wrong with you at all. I am like you; I have also fallen for Big Brother Gu.”
Li Chen was speechless for a moment. He did not know how to rebut. After Yun An spoke up, he felt so much better. He also had a dark thought in his heart.
What is it supposed to mean? Why is he staring at me like this?
Why is he staring at me like that if he does not love me?
Has he even thought about my feelings?
“Y-You…” Yun An was a little mad. “Didn’t we say that we wouldn’t meet again after we break up?”
But work did not allow them to part ways.
“What do you want?” Li Chen asked. “Tell me, what do you want?”
“I want Gu Yuanan to be alive.” Yun An looked into Li Chen’s eyes and mocked himself. “These days, I’ve gone crazy thinking about how if only he was still alive, I wouldn’t be living such a miserable life. In fact, I feel like I’m crazy for thinking that the two of you are in fact the same person. I went to investigate your secondary school life and the things that you say, as well as your circle of friends. Yet, I discovered something. Oh, there really is a Li Chen. Oh, he really is dead, and I am such a fool.”
He was a fool.
He waited five years for someone who never returned.
The wait made him go crazy.
In the past few years, he and Li Chen seem to be a joke. He deeply understood that there was a person occupying an irreplaceable position in his heart. He also understood that… a dead person could never return and that he had to cherish the people before him. When he was together with Li Chen, he did not even dare to think of Gu Yuanan. When he remembered, he always felt like he betrayed him. So he loved desperately and tried his best to be happy. He wanted to use happiness to suppress the guilt in his heart and suppress his ridiculous thoughts and expectations.
Because… Li Chen and Gu Yuanan were too alike.
He was almost numbing himself.
He felt subconsciously that it was G.o.d’s compensation for him. The spirit of the person that he had been waiting for would never return but had come back to accompany him in another person’s body. In the beginning, he treated Li Chen as a subst.i.tute. Yet in the end, he fell for Li Chen.