"From seeing him!"

Given this rich present of her grief, he can afford to be cruel. Coolly he says, "No, see him if you want to. Just as long as I don"t have to see the b.a.s.t.a.r.d." And, avoiding the sight of her face, he sees himself in the cabinet mirror, a big pink pale man going shapeless under the chin, his little lips screwed awry in what wants to be a smile.

The gravel in the driveway crackles again. From the bathroom window he sees the boxy dun top of Springer"s spandy new Toyota wagon. To Nelson he calls, "Grandpa"s here. Let"s go-o." To Janice he murmurs, "Sit tight, kid. Don"t commit yourself to anything." To his father-in-law, sliding in beside him, across a spaghetti of nylon safety straps, Rabbit sings, "Buy me some peanuts and crack-er jack..."

The stadium is on the northern side of Brewer, through a big cloverleaf, past the brick hulks of two old hosiery mills, along a three-lane highway where in these last years several roadside restaurants have begun proclaiming themselves as Pennsylvania Dutch, with giant plaster Amishmen and neon hex signs. GENUINE "Dutch" COOKING. Pa. Dutch Smorgasbord. Trying to sell what in the old days couldn"t be helped. Making a tourist attraction out of fat-fried food and a diet of dough that would give a pig pimples. They pa.s.s the country fairgrounds, where every September the same battered gyp stands return, and the farmers bring their stinking livestock, and Serafina the Egyptian Temptress will take off all her clothes for those yokels who put up a dollar extra. The first naked woman he saw was Serafma or her mother. She kept on her high heels and a black mask and bent way backwards; she spread her legs and kept a kind of token shimmy rhythm as she moved in a semi-circle so every straining head (luckily he was tall even then) could see a trace of her cleft, an exciting queasy-making wrinkle shabbily masked by a patch of hair that looked to him pasted-on. Rubbed threadbare? He didn"t know. He couldn"t imagine.

Springer is shaking his head over the York riots. "Sniper fire four nights in a row, Harry. What is the world coming to? We"re so defenseless, is what strikes me, we"re so defenseless against the violent few. All our inst.i.tutions have been based on trust."

Nelson pipes up. "It"s the only way they can get justice, Grandpa. Our laws defend property instead of people."

"They"re defeating their own purposes, Nellie. Many a white man of good will like myself is being turned against the blacks. Slowly but surely he"s being turned against them. It wasn"t Vietnam beat Humphrey, it was law and order in the streets. That"s the issue that the common man votes upon. Am I right or wrong, Harry? I"m such an old fogey I don"t trust my own opinions any more."

One old geezer, Harry is remembering, at the side of the little stage, reached from behind and put his hand up on her p.u.s.s.y, shouting, "Aha!" She stopped her dance and stared out of the black mask. The tent went quiet; the geezer, surprisingly, found enough blood in himself to blush. Aha. That cry of triumph, as if he had snared a precious small animal, Harry never forgot. Aha. He slouches down and in answer to Springer says, "Things go bad. Food goes bad, people go bad, maybe a whole country goes bad. The blacks now have more than ever, but it feels like less, maybe. We were all brought up to want things and maybe the world. isn"t big enough for all that wanting. I don"t know. I don"t know anything."

Old man Springer laughs; he snorts and snarls so his little gray mouse of a mustache merges with his nostril hairs. "Did you hear about Teddy Kennedy this morning?"

"What about him? No."

"Shut your ears, Nellie. I forgot you were in the car or I wouldn"t have mentioned it."

"What, Grandpa? What did he do? Did somebody shoot him?"

"Apparently, Harry" - Springer talks out of the side of his mouth, as if to shield Nelson, yet so distinctly the child can easily hear- "he dumped some girl from Pennsylvania into one of those Ma.s.sachusetts rivers. Murder as plain as my face." Springer"s face, from the side, is a carving of pink bone, with rosy splotches where the cheekbones put most pressure, and a b.u.mp of red on the point where the nose turns. An anxious sharp face creased all over by a salesman"s constant smile. One thing at least about setting type, there"s a limit on how much a.s.s you must kiss.

"Did they get him? Is he in jail, Grandpa?"

"Ah, Nellie, they"ll never put a Kennedy in jail. Palms will be greased. Evidence will be suppressed. I call it a crying shame."

Rabbit asks, "What do you mean, dumped some girl?"

"They found her in his car upside down in the water beside some bridge, I forget the name, one of those islands they have up there. It happened last night and he didn"t go to the police until they were about to nab him. And they call this a democracy, Harry, is the irony of it."

"What would you call it?"

"I"d call it a police state run by the Kennedys, is what I would call it. That family has been out to buy the country since those Brahmins up in Boston snubbed old Joe. And then he put himself in league with Hitler when he was FDR"s man in London. Now they"ve got the young widow to marry a rich Greek in case they run out of American money. Not that she"s the goodie-gumdrop the papers say; those two were a match. What"s your opinion, Harry? Am I talking out of line? I"m such a back number now I don"t trust to hear myself talk." Aha.

"I"d say," Harry says, "you"re right with it. You should join the kids and buy yourself a bomb to throw."

Springer looks over from driving (the yellow parabolas of a McDonald"s flash by; the tinsel spinners of a Mobil station break the noon sun into trinkets) to see if he has oversold. How timid, really, people who live by people must be. Earl Angstrom was right about that at least: better make your deals with things. Springer says, hedgily smiling, showing porcelain teeth beneath the gray blur, "I"ll say this for the Kennedys, however, they don"t get my dander up like FDR. There was a man, Harry, so mad he died of maggots in the brain. One thing to be said for the Kennedys, they didn"t try to turn the economy upside down for the benefit of the poor, they were willing to ride along with the System as it"s been handed down."

Nelson says, "Billy Fosnacht says when we grow up we"re going to overthrow the System."

Springer can"t hear, lost in his vision of executive madness and corruption. "He tried to turn it upside down for the benefit of the black and white trash, and when that didn"t work for eight years he finagled the little j.a.panese into attacking Pearl Harbor so he had a war to bail him out of the Depression. That"s why you have these wars, believe it or not, to bail the Democrats out of their crazy economics. LBJ, now, as soon as he got his four-year guarantee, went into Vietnam where n.o.body wanted us, just to get the coloreds up into the economy. LBJ, he was an FDR man. Truman, the same thing in Korea. History bears me out, every time, call me an old fogey if you want to: what"s your angle on it, Nelson?"

"Last night on television," the boy says, "we watched an old movie about fighting the j.a.ps in the Pacific, this little boat sank, and the captain or whatever he was swam miles with a broken back dragging this other guy."

"That was Kennedy," Springer says. "Pure propaganda. They made that movie because Old Joe owned a lot of those studios. He sank his money into the movies when aL the honest businessmen who"d put this country on the map were losing their shirts. He was in close league, the story I heard, with those Jewish Communists out there."

Rabbit tells Nelson, "That"s where your Aunt Mim is now, out. there with those Communists."

"She"s beautiful," Nelson tells his grandfather. "Have you ever seen my Aunt Mim?"

"Not as much as I"d have liked to, Nellie. She is a striking figure, however, I know you"re right there. You"re right to be proud of her. Harry, your silence disturbs me. Your silence disturbs me. Maybe I"m way off base - way off: Tell me what you think of the state of the nation. With these riots everywhere, and this poor Polish girl, she comes from up near Williamsport, abused and drowned when the future President takes his pleasure. Pregnant, wouldn"t surprise me. Nellie, you shouldn"t be hearing any of this."

Harry stretches, cramped in the car, short of sleep. They are near the stadium, and a little colored boy is waving them into a lot. "I think," he says, "about America, it"s still the only place."

But something has gone wrong. The ball game is boring. The s.p.a.ced dance of the men in white fails to enchant, the code beneath the staccato spurts of distant motion refuses to yield its meaning. Though basketball was his sport, Rabbit remembers the grandeur of all that gra.s.s, the excited perilous feeling when a high fly was hoisted your way, the homing-in on the expanding dot, the leathery smack of the catch, the formalized nonchalance of the heads-down trot in toward the bench, the ritual flips and shrugs and the nervous courtesies of the batter"s box. There was a beauty here bigger than the hurtling beauty of basketball, a beauty refined from country pastures, a game of solitariness, of waiting, waiting for the pitcher to complete his gaze toward first base and throw his lightning, a game whose very taste, of spit and dust and gra.s.s and sweat and leather and sun, was America. Sitting behind first base between his son and his father-in-law, the sun resting on his thighs, the rolled-up program in his hand, Rabbit waits for this beauty to rise to him, through the cheers and the rhythm of innings, the traditional national magic, tasting of his youth; but something is wrong. The crowd is spa.r.s.e, thinning out from a cl.u.s.ter behind the infield to fistfuls of boys sprawling on the green seats sloped up from the outfield. Spa.r.s.e, loud, hard: only the drunks, the bookies, the cripples, the senile, and the delinquents come out to the ball park on a Sat.u.r.day afternoon. Their catcalls are coa.r.s.e and unkind. "Ram it down his throat, Speedy!"

"Kill that black b.a.s.t.a.r.d!" Rabbit yearns to protect the game from the crowd; the poetry of s.p.a.ce and inaction is too fine, too slowly spun for them. And for the players themselves, they seem expert listlessly, each intent on a private dream of making it, making it into the big leagues and the big money, the own-your-own-bowlingalley money; they seem specialists like any other, not men playing a game because all men are boys time is trying to outsmart. A gallant pretense has been abandoned. Only the explosions of orange felt on their uniforms, under the script Blasts, evoke the old world of heraldic local loyalties. Brewer versus Hazleton and who cares? Not Springer: as he watches, his lips absent-mindedly move as if sorting out old accounts. Not Nelson: the screen of reality is too big for the child, he misses television"s running commentary, the audacious commercials. His politely unspoken disappointment nags at Rabbit, prevents the game from rising and filling the scared hollow Janice"s confession has left in him. The eight-team leagues of his boyhood have vanished with the forty-eight-star flag. The shortstops never chew tobacco any more. The game drags on, with a tedious flurry of strategy, of pinch-hitters and intentional walks, prolonging the end. Hazleton wins, 7-3. Old man Springer sighs, getting up as if from a nap in an unnatural position. He wipes a fleck of beer from his mustache. " "Fraid our boys didn"t come through for you, Nellie," he says.

"That"s O.K., Grampa. It was neat."

To Harry he says, needing to find something to sell, "That young Trexler is a comer though."

Rabbit is cross and groggy from two beers in the sun. He doesn"t invite Springer into his house, just thanks him a lot for everything. The house is silent, like outer s.p.a.ce. On the kitchen table is a sealed envelope, addressed "Harry." The letter inside, in Janice"s half-formed hand, with its unsteady slant and miserly cramping, says .

Harry dear - .

I must go off a few days to think. Please don"t try to find or follow me please. It is very important that we all respect each other as people and trust each other now. I was shocked by your idea that I keep a lover since I don"t think this would be honest and it made me wonder if I mean anything to you at all. Tell Nelson I"ve gone to the Poconos with Grandmom. Don"t forget to give him lunch money for the playground.

Love, .

Jan

"Jan" - her name from the years she used to work at Kroll"s selling salted nuts in the smock with Jan st.i.tched above the pocket in script. In those days some afternoons they would go to Linda Hammacher"s apartment up on Eighth Street. The horizontal rose rays as the sun set behind the great gray gas-holder. The wonder of it as she let him slip off all her clothes. Underwear more substantial then: stocking snaps to undo, the marks of elastic printed on her skin. Jan. That name suspended in her these fifteen years; the notes she left for him around the house were simply signed " J."

"Where"s Mom?" Nelson asks.

"She"s gone to the Poconos," Rabbit says, pulling the note back toward his chest, in case the boy tries to read it. "She"s gone with Mom-mom, her legs were getting worse in this heat. I know it seems crazy, but that"s how things are sometimes. You and I can eat over at Burger Bliss tonight."

The boy"s face - freckled, framed by hair that covers his ears, his plump lips b.u.t.toned shut and his eyes sunk in fear of making a mistake - goes rapt, seems to listen, as when he was two and flight and death were rustling above him. Perhaps his experience then shapes what he says now. Firmly he tells his father, "She"ll be back."

Sunday dawns muggy. The eight-o"clock news says there was scattered shooting again last night in York and the western part of the state. Edgartown police chief Dominick J. Arena is expected today formally to charge Senator Kennedy with leaving the scene of an accident. Apollo Eleven is in lunar orbit and the Eagle is being readied for its historic descent. Rabbit slept badly and turns the box off and walks around the lawn barefoot to shock the headache out of his skull. The houses of Penn Villas are still, with the odd Catholic car roaring off to ma.s.s. Nelson comes down around nine, and after making him breakfast Harry goes back to bed with a cup of coffee and the Sunday Brewer Standard. Snoopy on the front page of the funny papers is lying dreaming on his doghouse and soon Rabbit falls asleep. The kid looked scared. The boy"s face shouts, and a soundless balloon comes out. When he awakes, the electric clock says five of eleven. The second hand sweeps around and around; a wonder the gears don"t wear themselves to dust. Rabbit dresses - fresh white shirt out of respect for Sunday - and goes downstairs the second time, his feet still bare, the carpeting fuzzy to his soles, a bachelor feeling. The house feels enormous, all his. He picks up the phone book and searches out Stavros Chas 1204EisenhwerAv He doesn"t dial, merely gazes at the name and the number as if to see his wife, smaller than a pencil dot, crawling between the letters. He dials a number he knows by heart.

His father answers. "Yes?" A wary voice, ready to hang up on a madman or a salesman.

"Pop, hi; hey, I hope you didn"t wait up or anything the other night, we weren"t able to make it and I couldn"t even get to a phone."

A little pause, not much, just enough to let him know they were indeed disappointed. "No, we figured something came up and went to bed about the usual time. Your mother isn"t one to waste herself complaining, as you know."

"Right. Well, look. About today."

His voice goes hoa.r.s.e to whisper, "Harry, you must come over today. You"ll break her heart if you don"t."

"I will, I will, but -"

The old man has cupped his mouth against the receiver, urging hoa.r.s.ely, "This may be her last, you know. Birthday."

"We"re coming, Pop. I mean, some of us are. Janice has had to go off."

"Go off how?"

"It"s kind of complicated, something about her mother"s legs and the Poconos, she decided last night she had to, I don"t know. It"s nothing to worry about. Everybody"s all right, she"s just not here. The kid"s here though." To ill.u.s.trate, he calls, "Nelson!"

There is no answer.

"He must be out on his bike, Pop. He"s been right around all morning. When would you like us?"

"Whenever it suits you, Harry. Late afternoon or so. Come as early as you can. We"re having roast beef. Your mother wanted to bake a cake but the doctor thought it might be too much for her. I bought a nice one over at the Half-A-Loaf. b.u.t.terscotch icing, didn"t that used to be your favorite?"

"It"s her birthday, not mine. What should I get her for a present?"

"Just your simple presence, Harry, is all the present she desires."

"Yeah, O.K. I"ll think of something. Explain to her Janice won"t be coming."

"As my father, G.o.d rest, used to say, It is to be regretted, but it can"t be helped."

Once Pop fords that ceremonious vein, he tends to ride it. Rabbit hangs up. The kid"s bike - a rusty Schwinn, been meaning to get him a new one, both fenders rub - is not in the garage. Nor is the Falcon. Only the oil cans, the gas can, the lawnmower, the jumbled garden hose (Janice must have used it last), a lawn rake with missing teeth, and the Falcon"s snow tires are there. For an hour or so Rabbit swims around the house in a daze, not knowing who to call, not having a car, not wanting to go inside with the television set. He pulls weeds in the border beds where that first excited summer of their own house Janice planted bulbs and set in plants and shrubs. Since then they have done nothing, just watched the azaleas die and accepted the daffodils and iris as they came in and let the phlox and weeds fight as these subsequent summers wore on, nature lost in Nature. He weeds until he begins to see himself as a weed and his hand with its ugly big moons on the fingernails as G.o.d"s hand choosing and killing, then he goes inside the house and looks into the refrigerator and eats a carrot raw. He looks into the phone directory and looks up Fosnacht, there are a lot of them, and two Olivers, and it takes him a while to figure out M is the one, M for Margaret and just the initial to put off obscene calls, though if he were on that kick he"d soon figure out that initials were unattached women. "Peggy, hi; this is Harry Angstrom." He says his name with faint proud emphasis; they were in school together, and she remembers him when he was somebody. "I was just wondering, is Nelson over there playing with Billy? He went off on his bike a while ago and I"m wondering where to."

Peggy says, "He"s not here, Harry. Sorry." Her voice is frosted with all she knows, Janice burbling into her ear yesterday. Then more warmly she asks, "How"s everything going?" He reads the equation, Ollie left me; Janice left you: h.e.l.lo.

He says hastily, "Great. Hey, if Nelson comes by tell him I want him. We got to go to his grandmother"s."

Her voice cools in saying goodbye, joins the vast glaring iceface of all those who know. Nelson seems the one person left in the county who doesn"t know: this makes him even more precious. Yet, when the boy returns, red-faced and damp-haired from hard pedalling, he tells his father, "I was at the Fosnachts."

Rabbit blinks and says, "O.K. After this, let"s keep in better touch. I"m your mother and your father for the time being." They eat lunch, Lebanon baloney on stale rye. They walk up Emberly to Weiser and catch a 12 bus east into Brewer. It being Sunday, they have to wait twenty minutes under the cloudless colorless sky. At the hospital stop a crowd of visitors gets on, having done their duty, dazed, carrying away dead flowers and read books. Boats, white arrowheads tipping wrinkled wakes, are buzzing in the black river below the bridge. A colored kid leaves his foot in the aisle when Rabbit tries to get off he steps over it. "Big feet," the boy remarks to his companion.

"Fat lips," Nelson, following, says to the colored boy.

They try to find a store open. His mother was always difficult to buy presents for. Other children had given their mothers cheerful junk: dime-store jewelry, bottles of toilet water, boxes of candy, scarves. For Mom that had been too much, or not enough. Mim always gave her something she had made: a woven pot holder, a hand-ill.u.s.trated calendar. Rabbit was pretty poor at making things so he gave her himself, his trophies, his headlines. Mom had seemed satisfied: lives more than things concerned her. But now what? What can a dying person desire? Grotesque prosthetic devices - arms, legs, battery-operated hearts - run through Rabbit"s head as he and Nelson walk the dazzling, Sunday-stilled downtown of Brewer. Up near Ninth and Weiser they find a drugstore open. Thermos bottles, sungla.s.ses, shaving lotion, Kodak film, plastic baby pants: nothing for his mother. He wants something big, something bright, something to get through to her. Realgirl Liquid Make-Up, Super Plenamins, Non-Smear polish remover, Nudit for the Legs. A rack of shampoo-in hair color, a different smiling c.u.n.t on every envelope: Snow Queen Blond, Danish Wheat, Killarney Russet, Parisian Spice, Spanish Black Wine. Nelson plucks him by the sleeve of his white shirt and leads to where a Sunbeam Clipmaster and a Roto-Shine Magnetic Electric Shoe Polisher nestle side by side, glossily packaged. "She doesn"t wear shoes any more, just slippers," he says, "and she never cut her hair that I can remember. It used to hang down to her waist." But his attention is drawn on to a humidifier for $12.95. From the picture on the box, it looks like a fat flying saucer. No matter how immobile she gets, it would be there. Around Brewer, though, the summers are as humid as they can be anyway, but maybe in the winter, the radiators dry out the house, the wallpaper peels, the skin cracks; it might help. It would be there night and day, when he wasn"t. He moves on to a Kantleek Water Bottle and a 2%Z -inch reading gla.s.s and dismisses both as morbid. His insides are beginning to feel sickly. The pain of the world is a crater all these syrups and pills a thousandfold would fail to fill. He comes to the Quikease Electric Ma.s.sager with Scalp Comb. It has the silhouettes of naked women on the box, gracefully touching their shoulders, Lesbians, caressing the backs of their necks, where else the box leaves to the imagination, with what looks like a hair brush on a live wire. $11.95. Bedsores. It might help. It might make her laugh, tickle, buzz: it is life. Life is a ma.s.sage. And it costs a dollar less than the humidifier. Time is ticking. Nelson tugs at his sleeve and wants a maple walnut ice cream soda. While the kid is eating it, Rabbit buys a birthday card to go with the ma.s.sager. It shows a rooster crowing, a crimson sun rising, and green letters shouting on the outside It"s Great to Get Up in the A.M.... and on the inside... to Wish You a Happy Birthday, MA! Ma. Am. G.o.d, what a lot of ingenious c.r.a.p there is in the world. He buys it anyway, because the rooster is bright orange and jubilant enough to get through to her. Her eyes aren"t dim necessarily but because her tongue gropes they could be. Play it safe.

The world outside is bright and barren. The two of them, father and son, feel sharply alone, Rabbit gripping his bulky package. Where is everybody? Is there life on Earth? Three blocks down the deserted street of soft asphalt the clock that is the face of a giant flower, the center of the Sunflower Beer sign, says they are approaching four. They wait at the same corner, opposite the Phoenix Bar, where Harry"s father customarily waits, and take the 16A bus to Mt. Judge. They are the only pa.s.sengers; the driver tells them mysteriously, "They"re about down." Up they go through the City Park, past the World War II tank and the bandsh.e.l.l and the tennis court, around the shoulder of the mountain. On one side of them, gas stations and a green cliff, on the other, a precipice and, distantly, a viaduct. As the kid stares out of the window, toward the next mountain over, Rabbit asks him, "Where did you go this morning? Tell me the truth."

The boy answers, finally. "Eisenhower Avenue."

"To see if Mommy"s car was there?"

"I guess."

"Was it?"

"Yop. "

"D"you go in?"

"Nope. Just looked up at the windows awhile."

"Did you know the number to look at?"

"One two oh four."

"You got it."

They get off at Central, beside the granite Baptist church, and walk up Jackson toward his parents" house. The streets haven"t changed in his lifetime. They were built too close together for vacant lots and too solidly to tear down, of a reddish brick with purplish bruises in it, with a texture that as a child Rabbit thought of as chapped, like his lips in winter. Maples and horsechestnuts darken the stumpy front lawns, hedged by little wired barricades of barberry and box. The houses are semi-detached and heavy, their roofs are slate and their porches have brick walls and above each door of oak and bevelled gla.s.s winks a fanlight of somber churchly colors. As a child Rabbit imagined that fanlight to be a child of the windows above the Lutheran altar and therefore of -G.o.d, a mauve and golden seeing sentinel posted above where he and Pop and Mom and Mim came and went a dozen times a day. Now, entering with his son, still too much a son himself to knock, he feels his parents" place as stifling. Though the clock on the living-room sideboard says only 4:20, darkness has come: dark carpets, thick drawn drapes, dead wallpaper, potted plants crowding the gla.s.s on the side that has the windows. Mom used to complain about how they had the inside half of a corner house; but when the Bolgers, their old neighbors, died, and their half went onto the market, they made no move to inquire after the price, and a young couple from Scranton bought it, the wife pregnant and barefoot and the husband something in one of the new electronics plants out along Route 422; and the Angstroms still live in the dark half. They prefer it. Sunlight fades. They sent him, Harry, out in the world to shine, but hugged their own shadows here. Their neighbor house on the other side, across two cement sidewalks with a strip of gra.s.s between them, where lived the old Methodist Mom used to fight with about who would mow the gra.s.s strip, has had a FOR SALE sign up for a year. People now want more air and land than those huddled hillside neighborhoods can give them. The house smells to Rabbit of preservative: of odors filming other odors, of layers of time, of wax and aerosol and death; of safety.

A shape, a shade, comes forward from the kitchen. He expects it to be his father, but it is his mother, shuffling, in a bathrobe, yet erect and moving. She leans forward unsmiling to accept his kiss. Her wrinkled cheek is warm; her hand steadying itself on his wrist is k.n.o.bbed and cold.

"Happy birthday, Mom." He hugs the ma.s.sager against his chest; it is too early to offer it. She stares at the package as if he has put a shield between them.

"I"m sixty-five," she says, groping for phrases, so that her sentences end in the middle. "When I was twenty. I told my boy friend I wanted to be shot. When I was thirty." It is not so much the strange tremulous attempt of her lips to close upon a thought as the accompanying stare, an unblinking ungathering gaze into s.p.a.ce that lifts her eyes out of any flow and frightens Rabbit with a sense of ultimate blindness, of a blackboard from which they will all be wiped clean.

"You told Pop this?"

"Not your dad. Another. I didn"t meet your dad till later. This other one, I"m glad. He"s not here to see me now."

"You look pretty good to me," Rabbit tells her. "I didn"t think you"d be up."

"Nelson. How do I look. To you?" Thus she acknowledges the boy. She has always been testing him, putting him on the defensive. She has never forgiven him for not being another Harry, for having so much Janice in him. Those little Springer hands. Now her own hands, held forgotten in front of her bathrobe belt, constantly work in a palsied waggle.

"Nice," Nelson says. He is wary. He has learned that brevity and promptness of response are his best defense.

To take attention off the kid, Rabbit asks her, "Should you be up?"

She laughs, an astonishing silent thing; her head tips back, her big nose glints from the facets of its tip and underside, her hand stops waggling. "I know, the way Earl talks. You"d think from the way he wants me in bed. I"m laid out already. The doctor. Wants me up. I had to bake a cake. Earl wanted. One of those tasteless paps from the Half-A-Loaf. Where"s Janice?"

"Yeah, about that. She"s awfully sorry, she couldn"t come. She had to go off with her mother to the Poconos, it took us all by surprise."

"Things can be. Surprising."

From upstairs Earl Angstrom"s thin voice calls anxiously, with a wheedler"s borrowed triumph, "They"re down! Eagle has landed! We"re on the moon, boys and girls! Uncle Sam is on the moon!"

"That"s just. The place for him," Mom says, and with a rough gesture sweeps her distorted hand back toward her ear, to smooth down a piece of hair that has wandered loose from the bun she still twists up. Funny, the hair as it grays grows more stubborn. They say even inside the grave, it grows. Open coffins of women and find the whole thing stuffed like inside of a mattress. Pubic hair too? Funny it never needs to be cut. Serafina"s looked threadbare, mangy. When he touches his mother"s arm to help her up the stairs to look at the moon, the flesh above her elbow is disconcerting -loose upon the bone, as on a well-cooked chicken.

The set is in Mom"s bedroom at the front of the house. It has the smell their cellar used to have when they had those two cats. He tries to remember their names. Pansy. And w.i.l.l.y. w.i.l.l.y, the tom, got in so many fights his belly began to slosh and he had to be taken to the Animal Rescue. There is no picture of the moon on the tube, just crackling voices while cardboard cutouts simulate what is happening, and electronic letters spell out who in the crackle of men is speaking.

"... literally thousands of little one and two foot craters around the area," a man is saying in the voice that used to try to sell them Shredded Ralston between episodes of Tom Mix. "We see some angular blocks out several hundred feet in front of us that are probably two feet in size and have angular edges. There is a hill in view just about on the ground track ahead of us. Difficult to estimate, but might be a half a mile or a mile."