Chapter 948: Special Lover’s Prattle
Ye Jian was looking at him too. She used her eyes to ask him what he would do if it was him.
“I thought about it for about a week. You filled up my entire mind. I thought that I needed to find a girl like Ye Jian. I needed someone who can understand me and someone whom I can understand too. If not, one day, when I appear in front of her drenched in blood, it would be very frightening for her.”
Ye Jian smiled. She thought about herself. If she appeared in front of her partner drenched in blood, her partner, who lived in a peaceful world, might die from fright.
Who was willing to find a girlfriend who couldn’t be found all the time and whose hands were stained with blood? Even if he could accept her, as the days went by, he would get irritated and tired. He wouldn’t want to continue the relations.h.i.+p anymore and breaking up was definite.
If she had a boyfriend who didn’t understand her and she couldn’t tell him the hards.h.i.+ps and dangers she went through, their relations.h.i.+p wouldn’t be strong. They would hit the rocks at any moment.
She had to find someone who could understand and accept her. They would go through wars and battlefields together. They would go through thick and thin together until they could never part with each other… This kind of love was real love.
Suddenly, Ye Jian understood why Xia Jinyuan mentioned in his love letter that ‘They say that the love of the Special Forces is painful. Our love can’t be exposed. We have to hide our love in a dark and cold corner, struggling in agony. That is the pain of being lovesick’.
That was because no one understood them. No one really understood them and no one knew how dangerous their profession was.
This was all because as a Special Forces soldier, they were unable to tell their loved ones their special ident.i.ty.
Hence, their love could only struggle in agony in a dark corner and their lovesickness was painful.
Love that couldn’t be exposed was like a sprout germinating in the dark. It was so delicate that a slight touch would break it. It was too tiring to protect this kind of love. One would feel tired mentally.
To that old soldier, there were a few reasons why he broke up. First, he was tired. Second, he didn’t want to implicate the lady and waste her youth. Lastly, soldiers like them might not be able to come back from their missions. Since the other party couldn’t understand him, why not just let go and walk their own paths?
“I will not get scared. Look at you. You’re drenched in blood now. Your face, nose, eyebrows, and forehead are all stained with blood.” She retracted her hands from his hands and used her cleaned hands to touch his face. Finally, her hands stopped at the edge of his eyes. She smiled slightly and said, “Also, I can see myself in your eyes, My face, nose, eyebrows, and forehead are stained with blood too.”
“What you look like is how I look like. We are the same. We are not afraid of each other and we don’t have to carefully protect each other. You groom me and I will follow in your footsteps. This is our love.”
This is their love… The blood in the depth of his heart started boiling because of her sentence. In his entire 23 years, Xia Jinyuan finally had a taste of what being touched by a lover’s prattle felt like.
There seemed to be a fire burning in his heart. Because of her words, even if he was going to be burned into ashes immediately, he would do it willingly.
That wasn’t the end. Ye Jian’s confession hadn’t ended. She smiled and looked at him intently. Her gentle voice merged with the wind and the mist. It floated lightly at the side of his ears. “We won’t struggle in the darkness, we won’t cry in a corner. The love I want and the love you want is the love we have now.”