Chapter 195 - Why Now ?

Father Lin first checked Xiao Shuyan , once Doctor Gu confirmed that Xiao Shuyan was really alright , only then Father Lin heaved a sigh of relief . After confirming Xiao Shuyan "s condition , he turned to look at his two son who were staring at him with vigilance and resentment . Though there was some relief and comfort flickering in their eyes , but the majority of their emotions were negative .

Father Lin stiffened and then he turned around to look at Xiao Shuyan , seeing that the boy was still asleep , father Lin asked a nurse to take care of the kids before he brought his sons outside the medicine hall .

Lin Yan and Lin Yu wanted to listen what their father had to say for himself so they quietly followed him outside , though their faces were still taut with anger and resentment . Lin Yan still gave the nurse who was taking care of Xiao Shuyan a hundred copper coins to brew medicine for the child .

Their anger was a different matter and taking care of this sick child was? different .

" they are not mine " said Father Lin at once , after the three of them came out of the medicine hall " those kids are the kids of my benefactor , the one who saved me after I drowned in the river because of the flood -my good brother and his wife .." father Lin broke away but there was no need for him to continue on with his sentence , because even without him completing the sentence , Lin Yan and Lin Yu understood that most likely the couple lost their lives because of the flood.

" they left their kids under my care . I"m those kids G.o.dfather you see " continued Father Lin blocking away his tears " that"s why those kids call me father originally they called me G.o.dfather but later on it became a painful reminder for those kids , every time they called me G.o.dfather , they would remember that they no longer have anyone in the world . So , I asked them to call me father .. their parents were really good to me . Its only natural that I am good towards their kids , after all I don"t want these kids to think that they are orphans with me here "

Lin Yan cold face warmed up slightly on the other hand Lin Yu "s face that was stiff and stoic also lost some of its anger . However , the two of them still had many questions to ask therefore Lin Yan? only muttered an " En " while Lin Yu simply stared at his father coldly though the fists that were clenched on his sides told how agitated and nervous he was!

" If you were al…alright why didn"t you return ?" asked Lin Yu tilting his head slightly as he looked at his father in front of him " It has been more than ten years since you were gone , d…do you have any id…idea how much mo…mother suffered because you were gone !"

For the first time Lin Yu hated his stuttering more than anything in the world . He was clearly angry and enraged but because of his stutter he couldn"t really let go of his anger completely . He didn"t hate his father for leaving them for ten years but the reason he couldn"t forgive his father "s absence was because of his mother"s sufferings ! If his father returned would his mother"s health deteriorate so much ? Would his mother go around asking for work at the embroidery shop , so that she could earn a little money for her sons ? Would the old Yu family suppress and trodden on his mother until his mother"s illness flared so badly that she started to fall sick every now and then ? And even if ignored his mother"s suffering could he ignore his brother"s sufferings ? Can he forget how his elder brother almost lost his life ? Can he forget how his second brother was? almost r*ped by that old mistress ?Will he ever forget how his third brother was beaten until he almost died ? Or will he ever be able to forgive the helpless expression of his fourth brother when Grandma Lin told him that he could no longer study ? Even now fourth brother"s tears were still fresh in his mind , even though it has been years - his fourth brother who always smiled like the gentle wind of spring cried for the first time that day ! Even if he forgot his pain and sufferings when he was thrown off the cliff - he will never forget his family"s sufferings !

" Why co..come now ! Why are y..you only here now ! Why didn"t you return b..before - if you di..did , if you di..did " Lin Yu broke away , his eyes turned red as all the resentment that he had buried in his heart broke free . Though the brothers acted like they all were fine after they lost their father but in fact , their father was the pillar of their family . Once he was gone , Lin Yu and his brothers felt as if they were being squashed by the sky itself!

They have seen their mother fretting over the smallest expense - had seen her work till four in the morning before going out on the fields and plowing the land without any rest . If they didn"t see their mother suffering so much , then their eldest brother wouldn"t have ever went to hunt at such a tender age of sixteen .

They have slept on hungry stomach , they have suffered through ailments and illness without medicine . They had gone past storms and now when everything was alright their father returned , now that they no longer needed their he came back - why did he have to return now ? Why not earlier when they all wanted him ?When they needed him ?

However , no matter how much Lin Yu resented his father for his absence ,he was still really glad to see his father alive and well .

Lin Yan saw his little brother crying and immediately embraced Lin Yu .. He knew that no matter how much this brat liked to act as a big boss , his heart was soft and warm - Lin Yu could pull small tricks but he was still a sixteen year old boy - still a child who haven"t seen the world .f?ℯℯ?e???νel. co?