Stories by Elizabeth Bear

Chapter 9

Indeed, down among the junk in the pit, something big was stirring. But that wasn"t all. That pressure Irizarry had sensed earlier, the feeling that many eyes were watching him, gaunt bodies stretching against whatever frail fabric held them back-here, it was redoubled, until he almost felt the brush of not-quite-in-phase whiskers along the nape of his neck.

Sanderson crawled up beside him, her pistol in one hand. Mongoose didn"t seem to mind her there.

"What"s down there?" she asked, her voice hissing on constrained breaths.

"The breeding pit," Irizarry said. "You feel that? Kind of funny, stretchy feeling in the universe?"

Sanderson nodded behind her mask. "It"s not going to make you any happier, is it, if I tell you I"ve felt it before?"

Irizarry was wearily, grimly unsurprised. But then Sanderson said, "What do we do?"

He was taken aback and it must have shown, even behind the rebreather, because she said sharply, "You"re the expert. Which I a.s.sume is why you"re on Kadath Station to begin with and why Station Master Lee has been so anxious that I not know it. Though with an infestation of this size, I don"t know how she thought she was going to hide it much longer anyway."

"Call it sabotage," Irizarry said absently. "Blame the Christians. Or the gillies. Or disgruntled s.p.a.cers, like the crew off the Caruso. It happens a lot, Colonel. Somelike me and Mongoose comes in and cleans up the toves, the station authorities get to crack down on whoever"s being the worst pain in the a.s.s, and life keeps on turning over. But she waited too long."

Down in the pit, the breeder heaved again. Breeding raths were slow-much slower than the juveniles, or the s.e.xually dormant adult rovers-but that was because they were armored like t.i.tanium armadillos. When threatened, one of two things happened. Babies flocked to mama, mama rolled herself in a ball, and it would take a tactical nuke to kill them. Or mama went on the warpath. Irizarry had seen a p.i.s.sed off breeder take out a bulkhead on a steelship once; it was pure dumb luck that it hadn"t breached the hull.

And, of course, once they started sp.a.w.ning, as this one had, they could produce between ten and twenty babies a day for anywhere from a week to a month, depending on the food supply. And the more babies they produced, the weaker the walls of the world got, and the closer the banders.n.a.t.c.hes would come.

"The first thing we have to do," he said to Colonel Sanderson, "as in, right now, is kill the breeder. Then you quarantine the station and get parties of volunteers to hunt down the rovers, before they can bring another breeder through, or turn into breeders, or however the f.u.c.k it works, which frankly I don"t know. It"ll take fire to clear this nest of toves, but Mongoose and I can probably get the rest. And fire, Colonel Sanderson. Toves don"t give a s.h.i.t about vacuum."

She could have reproved him for his language; she didn"t. She just nodded and said, "How do we kill the breeder?"

"Yeah," Irizarry said. "That"s the question."

Mongoose clicked sharply, her Irizarry! noise.

"No," Irizarry said. "Mongoose, don"t-"

But she wasn"t paying attention. She had only a limited amount of patience for his weird interactions with other members of his species and his insistence on waiting, and he"d clearly used it all up. She was Rikki Tikki Tavi, and the breeder was Nagina, and Mongoose knew what had to happen. She launched off Irizarry"s shoulders, shifting phase as she went, and without contact between them, there was nothing he could do to call her back. In less than a second, he didn"t even know where she was.

"You any good with that thing?" he said to Colonel Sanderson, pointing at her pistol.

"Yes," she said, but her eyebrows were going up again. "But, forgive me, isn"t this what cheshires are for?"

"Against rovers, sure. But-Colonel, have you ever seen a breeder?"

Across the bowl, a tove warbled, the chorus immediately taken up by its neighbors. Mongoose had started.

"No," Sanderson said, looking down at where the breeder humped and wallowed and finally stood up, shaking off ethereal babies and half-eaten toves. "Oh. G.o.ds."

You couldn"t describe a rath. You couldn"t even look at one for more than a few seconds before you started getting a migraine aura. Rovers were just blots of shadow. The breeder was ma.s.sive, armored, and had no recognizable features, save for its hideous, drooling, ragged edged maw. Irizarry didn"t know if it had eyes, or even needed them.

"She can kill it," he said, "but only if she can get at its underside. Otherwise, all it has to do is wait until it has a clear swing, and she"s... " He shuddered. "I"ll be lucky to find enough of her for a funeral. So what we have to do now, Colonel, is p.i.s.s it off enough to give her a chance. Or"-he had to be fair; this was not Colonel Sanderson"s job-"if you"ll lend me your pistol, you don"t have to stay."

She looked at him, her dark eyes very bright, and then she turned to look at the breeder, which was swinging its shapeless head in slow arcs, trying, no doubt, to track Mongoose. "f.u.c.k that, Mr. Irizarry," she said crisply. "Tell me where to aim."

"You won"t hurt it," he"d warned her, and she"d nodded, but he was pretty sure she hadn"t really understood until she fired her first shot and the breeder didn"t even notice. But Sanderson hadn"t given up; her mouth had thinned, and she"d settled into her stance, and she"d fired again, at the breeder"s feet as Irizarry had told her. A breeding rath"s feet weren"t vulnerable as such, but they were sensitive, much more sensitive than the human-logical target of its head. Even so, it was concentrating hard on Mongoose, who was making toves scream at various random points around the circ.u.mference of the breeding pit, and it took another three shots aimed at that same near front foot before the breeder"s head swung in their direction.

It made a noise, a sort of "wooaaurgh" sound, and Irizarry and Sanderson were promptly swarmed by juvenile raths.

"Ah, f.u.c.k," said Irizarry. "Try not to kill them."

"I"m sorry, try not to kill them?"

"If we kill too many of them, it"ll decide we"re a threat rather than an annoyance. And then it rolls up in a ball, and we have no chance of killing it until it unrolls again. And by then, there will be a lot more raths here."

"And quite possibly a banders.n.a.t.c.h," Sanderson finished. "But-" She batted away a half-corporeal rath that was trying to wrap itself around the warmth of her pistol.

"If we stood perfectly still for long enough," Irizarry said, "they could probably leech out enough of our heat to send us into hypothermia. But they can"t bite when they"re this young. I knew a cheshire-man once who swore they ate by crawling down into the breeder"s stomach to lap up what it"d digested. I"m still hoping that"s not true. Just keep aiming at that foot."

"You got it."

Irizarry had to admit, Sanderson was steady as a rock. He shooed juvenile raths away from both of them, Mongoose continued her depredations out there in the dark, and Sanderson, having found her target, fired at it in a nice steady rhythm. She didn"t miss; she didn"t try to get fancy. Only, after a while, she said out of the corner of her mouth, "You know, my battery won"t last forever."

"I know," Irizarry said. "But this is good. It"s working."

"How can you tell?"

"It"s getting mad."

"How can you tell?"

"The vocalizing." The rath had gone from its "wooaaurgh" sound to a series of guttural huffing noises, interspersed with high-pitched yips. "It"s warning us off. Keep firing."

"All right," Sanderson said. Irizarry cleared another couple of juveniles off her head. He was trying not to think about what it meant that no adult raths had come to the pit-just how much of Kadath Station had they claimed?

"Have there been any disappearances lately?" he asked Sanderson.

She didn"t look at him, but there was a long silence before she said, "None that seemed like disappearances. Our population is by necessity transient, and none too fond of authority. And, frankly, I"ve had so much trouble with the station master"s office that I"m not sure my information is reliable."

It had to hurt for a political officer to admit that. Irizarry said, "We"re very likely to find human bones down there. And in their caches."

Sanderson started to answer him, but the breeder decided it had had enough. It wheeled toward them, its maw gaping wider, and started through the mounds of garbage and corpses in their direction.

"What now?" said Sanderson.

"Keep firing," said Irizarry. Mongoose, wherever you are, please be ready.

He"d been about seventy-five percent sure that the rath would stand up on its hind legs when it reached them. Raths weren"t sapient, not like cheshires, but they were smart. They knew that the quickest way to kill a human was to take its head off, and the second quickest was to disembowel it, neither of which they could do on all fours. And humans weren"t any threat to a breeder"s vulnerable abdomen; Sanderson"s pistol might give the breeder a hot foot, but there was no way it could penetrate the breeder"s skin.

It was a terrible plan-there was that whole twenty-five percent where he and Sanderson died screaming while the breeder ate them from the feet up-but it worked. The breeder heaved itself upright, ma.s.sive, indistinct paw going back for a blow that would shear Sanderson"s head off her neck and probably bounce it off the nearest bulkhead, and with no warning of any kind, not for the humans, not for the rath, Mongoose phased viciously in, claws and teeth and sharp edged tentacles all less than two inches from the rath"s belly and moving fast.

The rath screamed and curled in on itself, but it was too late. Mongoose had already caught the lips of its-oh G.o.ds and fishes, Irizarry didn"t know the word. v.a.g.i.n.a? Cloaca? Ovipositor? The place where little baby raths came into the world. The only vulnerability a breeder had. Into which Mongoose shoved the narrow wedge of her head, and her clawed front feet, and began to rip.

Before the rath could even reach for her, her malleable was already entirely inside it, and it-screaming, scrabbling-was doomed.

Irizarry caught Sanderson"s elbow and said, "Now would be a good time, very slowly, to back away. Let the lady do her job."

Irizarry almost made it off of Kadath clean.

He"d had no difficulty in getting a berth for himself and Mongoose-after a party or two of volunteers had seen her in action, after the stories started spreading about the breeder, he"d nearly come to the point of beating off the steelship captains with a stick. And in the end, he"d chosen the offer of the captain of the Erich Zann, a boojum; Captain Alvarez had a long-term salvage contract in the Kuiper belt-"cleaning up after the ice miners," she"d said with a wry smile-and Irizarry felt like salvage was maybe where he wanted to be for a while. There"d be plenty for Mongoose to hunt, and n.o.body"s life in danger. Even a banders.n.a.t.c.h wasn"t much more than a case of indigestion for a boojum.

He"d got his money out of the station master"s office-hadn"t even had to talk to Station Master Lee, who maybe, from the things he was hearing, wasn"t going to be station master much longer. You could either be ineffectual or you could p.i.s.s off your political officer. Not both at once. And her secretary so very obviously didn"t want to bother her that it was easy to say, "We had a contract," and to plant his feet and smile. It wasn"t the doubled fee she"d promised him, but he didn"t even want that. Just the money he was owed.

So his business was taken care of. He"d brought Mongoose out to the Erich Zann, and insofar as he and Captain Alvarez could tell, the boojum and the cheshire liked each other. He"d bought himself new underwear and let Mongoose pick out a new pair of earrings for him. And he"d gone ahead and splurged, since he was, after all, on Kadath Station and might as well make the most of it, and bought a selection of books for his reader, including The Wind in the Willows. He was looking forward, in an odd, quiet way, to the long nights out beyond Neptune: reading to Mongoose, finding out what she thought about Rat and Mole and Toad and Badger.

Peace-or as close to it as Izrael Irizarry was ever likely to get.

He"d cleaned out his cubby in the Transient Barracks, slung his bag over one shoulder with Mongoose riding on the other, and was actually in sight of the Erich Zann"s dock when a voice behind him called his name.

Colonel Sanderson.

He froze in the middle of a stride, torn between turning around to greet her and bolting like a rabbit, and then she"d caught up to him. "Mr. Irizarry," she said. "I hoped I could buy you a drink before you go."

He couldn"t help the deeply suspicious look he gave her. She spread her hands, showing them empty. "Truly. No threats, no tricks. Just a drink. To say thank you." Her smile was lopsided; she knew how unlikely those words sounded in the mouth of a political officer.

And any other political officer, Irizarry wouldn"t have believed them. But he"d seen her stand her ground in front of a breeder rath, and he"d seen her turn and puke her guts out when she got a good look at what Mongoose did to it. If she wanted to thank him, he owed it to her to sit still for it.

"All right," he said, and added awkwardly, "Thank you."

They went to one of Kadath"s tourist bars: bright and quaint and cheerful and completely unlike the s.p.a.cer bars Irizarry was used to. On the other hand, he could see why Sanderson picked this one. No one here, except maybe the bartender, had the least idea who she was, and the bartender"s wide-eyed double take meant that they got excellent service: prompt and very quiet.

Irizarry ordered a pink lady-he liked them, and Mongoose, in delight, turned the same color pink, with rosettes matched to the maraschino "cherry." Sanderson ordered whisky, neat, which had very little resemblance to the whisky Irizarry remembered from planetside. She took a long swallow of it, then set the gla.s.s down and said, "I never got a chance to ask Spider John this: how did you get your cheshire?"

It was clever of her to invoke Spider John and Demon like that, but Irizarry still wasn"t sure she"d earned the story. After the silence had gone on a little too long, Sanderson picked her gla.s.s up, took another swallow, and said, "I know who you are."

"I"m n.o.body," Irizarry said. He didn"t let himself tense up, because Mongoose wouldn"t miss that cue, and she was touchy enough, what with all the steelship captains, that he wasn"t sure what she might think the proper response was. And he wasn"t sure, if she decided the proper response was to rip Sanderson"s face off, that he would be able to make himself disagree with her in time.

"I promised," Sanderson said. "No threats. I"m not trying to trace you, I"m not asking any questions about the lady you used to work for. And, truly, I"m only asking how you met this lady. You don"t have to tell me."

"No," Irizarry said mildly. "I don"t." But Mongoose, still pink, was coiling down his arm to investigate the gla.s.s-not its contents, since the interest of the egg-whites would be more than outweighed by the sharp sting to her nose of the alcohol, but the upside-down cone on a stem of a martini gla.s.s. She liked geometry. And this wasn"t a story that could hurt anyone.

He said, "I was working my way across Jupiter"s moons, oh, five years ago now. Ironically enough, I got trapped in a quarantine. Not for vermin, but for the black rot. It was a long time, and things got... ugly."

He glanced at her and saw he didn"t need to elaborate.

"There were Arkhamers trapped there, too, in their huge old scow of a ship. And when the water rationing got tight, there were people that said the Arkhamers shouldn"t have any-said that if it was the other way "round, they wouldn"t give us any. And so when the Arkhamers sent one of their daughters for their share..." He still remembered her scream, a grown woman"s terror in a child"s voice, and so he shrugged and said, "I did the only thing I could. After that, it was safer for me on their ship than it was on the station, so I spent some time with them. Their Professors let me stay.

"They"re not bad people," he added, suddenly urgent. "I don"t say I understand what they believe, or why, but they were good to me, and they did share their water with the crew of the ship in the next berth. And of course, they had cheshires. Cheshires all over the place, cleanest steelship you"ve ever seen. There was a litter born right about the time the quarantine finally lifted. Jemima-the little girl I helped-she insisted they give me pick of the litter, and that was Mongoose."

Mongoose, knowing the shape of her own name on Irizarry"s lips, began to purr, and rubbed her head gently against his fingers. He petted her, feeling his tension ease, and said, "And I wanted to be a biologist before things got complicated."

"Huh," said Sanderson. "Do you know what they are?"

"Sorry?" He was still mostly thinking about the Arkhamers, and braced himself for the usual round of superst.i.tious nonsense: demons or necromancers or what-not.

But Sanderson said, "Cheshires. Do you know what they are?"

"What do you mean, "what they are"? They"re cheshires."

"After Demon and Spider John... I did some reading and I found a Professor or two-Arkhamers, yes-to ask." She smiled, very thinly. "I"ve found, in this job, that people are often remarkably willing to answer my questions. And I found out. They"re banders.n.a.t.c.hes."

"Colonel Sanderson, not to be disrespectful-"

"Sub-adult banders.n.a.t.c.hes," Sanderson said. "Trained and bred and intentionally stunted so that they never mature fully."

Mongoose, he realized, had been watching, because she caught his hand and said emphatically, Not.

"Mongoose disagrees with you," he said and found himself smiling. "And really, I think she would know."

Sanderson"s eyebrows went up. "And what does Mongoose think she is?"

He asked, and Mongoose answered promptly, pink dissolving into champagne and gold: Jagular. But there was a thrill of uncertainty behind it, as if she wasn"t quite sure of what she stated so emphatically. And then, with a sharp toss of her head at Colonel Sanderson, like any teenage girl: Mongoose.

Sanderson was still watching him sharply. "Well?"

"She says she"s Mongoose."

And Sanderson really wasn"t trying to threaten him, or playing some elaborate political game, because her face softened in a real smile, and she said, "Of course she is."

Irizarry swished a sweet mouthful between his teeth. He thought of what Sanderson has said, of the banders.n.a.t.c.h on the Jenny Lind wriggling through stretched rips in reality like a spiny, deathly puppy tearing a blanket. "How would you domesticate a banders.n.a.t.c.h?"

She shrugged. "If I knew that, I"d be an Arkhamer, wouldn"t I?" Gently, she extended the back of her hand for Mongoose to sniff. Mongoose, surprising Irizarry, extended one tentative tendril and let it hover just over the back of Sanderson"s wrist.

Sanderson tipped her head, smiling affectionately, and didn"t move her hand. "But if I had to guess, I"d say you do it by making friends."

The Chains.

That You Refuse.

It will have been raining in Harvard Square for only half an hour when you give up hope. Only half an hour, but raining hard enough to send the tourists fleeing into cafes and coffeehouses, the rest of the street corner entertainers home in disgust. You will have already known that you would be the last holdout, shivering under an awning with the three white doves rustling in their box in the canvas bag by your feet and the revelatory neon of John Harvard"s/Grendel"s/Au Bon Pain reflecting on the rain-soaked brick, twisting answers to questions you would have preferred not to ask. You will not have made any money.

You will not be eating tonight, but you will have known that for some time.

You"ll pick up the tote and walk to the Red Line station opposite the Cambridge Savings Bank, having forgotten your umbrella, shoes squishing and the canvas straps cutting into your cold red fingers. You"ll mean to take the T north to Alewife, to the parking garage where you left your rusted yellow Volvo with barely enough gas in it to get you home. But as you enter the dry underground the doves will coo and flutter. The antique silver dollars in your pockets will jingle against the subway tokens. And you will journey south-rumble and clatter and rock of the underground train across the muddy Charles-and switch to the Orange line at Downtown Crossing, and emerge from the T in Chinatown.

It will have been raining here also, and the streets will be smeared with neon. You will have emerged not far from the Orpheum Theatre. You will take it as a portent and force yourself not to look back as you climb from the light of the T station into the rainbow-daubed darkness of the streets. Your black oversized denim jacket with the concealed pockets sewn into the sleeves and the clips and elastic beneath the arms will grow soggy, heavy, cold. Sleepily, the doves will be complaining. The air will fill with aromas of soy and ginger. The neon will guide you. Red light, green light, triple-x.x.x and live nude girls. Peking duck and garlic noodle. Parsley, sage, and time.

You will know hope. You will have blinked and missed it in the weather, whistling, headed in the other direction, hat pulled low against the rain over its bright feathers. You will know that you never had a chance; the neon teaches all. You will have drawn a silk scarf from a secret pocket and knotted it about your hand to take the weight of the tote bag, the three white doves, and their metal box: their cage.

The charlatans of old days read entrails for their instruction; the charlatans of today read the future in the flutter of neon, in the pa.s.sing of cars. Charlatans, because it"s the only magic there is. Magic is a trap. Magic is a lie.