Editor: Amaris

"How could I hate you…" Xia Yan"s voice was completely helpless.

Xia Yan might dislike Ning Can, blamed Ning Can, became angry because of Ning Can"s teasing, but he would never be able to hate Ning Can.

Ning Can"s thin lips shivered. He lifted his head and gazed at Xia Yan. "You really…"

Seeing Ning Can face to face, Xia Yan felt the ashes on the bottom of his heart had few bits of fire igniting slowly. He didn"t dare to think any further. "I love you. This feeling of mine hasn"t changed at all."

Ning Can looked at Xia Yan anxiously. "You really…"

Xia Yan sighed softly. "Ning Can, for the sake of our friendship in the past, don"t bother me anymore."

Ning Can went silent.

Xia Yan could no longer control his sight, looking at Ning Can intimately and greedily. He said in a soft voice, "Facing this kind of confession, you should go straight to the point and reject instead of showing this muddled look. You clearly know my personality, I"m not the type of person who would joke about such things. It wasn"t a child"s play, I take every single word I said seriously."

Ning Can"s heartbeat became a bit faster. "I know, I know that you"re different from me."

It was exactly because of Xia Yan"s temper who was true to his words that when Ning Can heard Xia Yan said he hated him, he went into despair.

Ning Can had a glib tongue while Xia Yan was a man of few words.

Everyone who were familiar with them knew: what Ning Can said, it would be your loss if you take them seriously; what Xia Yan said, would be words he took to heart for the rest of his life.

Xia Yan set down his cold disguise after meeting with Ning Can again and regained his infinite amount of indulgence towards Ning Can. He said, "Which is why, please stay away from me, and don"t give me any more hope…"

"But I…" Ning Can interrupted. "I don"t want to leave you."

Xia Yan was stunned.

Ning Can stammered again after saying these words. His mouth usually dared to say and bawl about whatever he wanted, yet at this moment, it was as if his mouth was sticky because of paste, it was hard for him to say any words, "I don"t want to leave you. I"ve been regretting these past four years. I regretted the foolish things I"ve done, I regretted going abroad, I regretted parting ways with you…"

"Ning Can!" Xia Yan stopped him from continuing his words. "I already told you not to give me any hope."

Ning Can stopped.

The endless silence lingered in the dim room at one o"clock in the morning.

Both of them were wearing pajamas and their eyes looked slightly tired, but none of them were sleepy.

No matter how much Xia Yan tried to stop it, the fire was already set ablaze, burning his dry heart into a sea of fire.

After all, Xia Yan was yearning for Ning Can.

Even if there was only a glimmer of hope, he was still yearning.

Xia Yan opened his mouth and asked Ning Can with a voice that he never used in his life ever, "You…really don"t want to leave me?"

Ning Can rapidly shook his head. His short, fluffy, and flaxy hair was so dazzling like the warm sunshine.

Xia Yan"s throat tightened. "I have been holding this kind of feelings for you, you still wouldn"t leave me?"

Ning Can held his breath.

Xia Yan"s heart suddenly sank to the bottom of the alley. He laughed, his black eyes lacking warmth as he said, "Don"t tell me, you still want to go back to the past? After that thing happened, after I confessed to you, you would still say that you"d like to stay brothers with me and that we"re just friends?"

Ning Can grasped the pillow tightly that his knuckles swelled.

Xia Yan once again experienced the feeling of despair after falling from the peak into the abyss. His voice became cold again, "Alright, Ning Can, I love you, but I"m not…"

"I don"t know," Ning Can spoke at last. "I never thought you would l-love me. I never thought about this kind of feeling, but I…"

Xia Yan"s eyes turned dark and his heart felt like there was a hole forming in it. Right, Ning Can never thought about it, never loved Xia Yan, exactly like what Xia Yan had known.

Ning Can raised his head and looked at Xia Yan. He finished his words, "But I don"t hate it."

Xia Yan froze.

Ning Can pulled Xia Yan"s hand. "Xia Yan, let"s give it a try, dating…let"s try…dating…"

He stammered his words badly, but every single word he said rushed to the tip of Xia Yan"s heart.

"I know it"s not supposed to be said this way," said Ning Can. "But I"ve never liked anyone, and I don"t know what is considered to be liking someone, so let"s give it a try, perhaps if you don"t love me…mn…"

Not waiting for Ning Can to finish his words, Xia Yan had pushed Ning Can"s body onto the wall. Xia Yan approached him, lowered his head, and kissed Ning Can"s lips.

The author has something to say:

Sigh, they should have been like this since the start, you"re really making your mommy anxious.