The Landlord at Lion's Head

Chapter 45

"She does now. I told her last night."

"How came you to tell her?"

"I wanted to break with her. I wanted to stop it, once for all, and I thought that would do it, if anything would."

"Did that make her willing to give you up?"

Jeff checked himself in a sort of retrospective laugh. "I"m not so sure.

I guess she liked the excitement of that, too. You couldn"t understand the kind of girl she--She wanted to flirt with me that night I brought him home tipsy."

"I don"t care to hear any more about her. Why did you give her up?"

"Because I didn"t care for her, and I did care for you, Cynthy."

"I don"t believe it." Cynthia rose from the step, where she had been sitting, as if with renewed strength. "Go up and tell father to come down here. I want to see him." She turned and put her hand on the latch of the door.

"You"re not going in there, Cynthia," said Jeff. "It must be like death in there."

"It"s more like death out here. But if it"s the cold you mean, you needn"t be troubled. We"ve had a fire to-day, airing out the house. Will you go?"

"But what do you--what are you going to say to me?"

"I don"t know, yet. If I said anything now, I should tell you what Mr.

Westover did: go back to that girl, if she"ll let you. You"re fit for each other, as he said. Did you tell her that you were engaged to some one else?"

"I did, last night."

"But before that she didn"t know how false you were. Well, you"re not fit for her, then; you"re not good enough."

She opened the door and went in, closing it after her. Jeff turned and walked slowly away; then he came quickly back, as if he were going to follow her within. But through the window he saw her as she stood by the table with a lamp in her hand. She had turned up the light, which shone full in her face and revealed its severe beauty broken and writhen with the effort to repress her weeping. He might not have minded the severity or the beauty, but the pathos was more than he could stand. "Oh, Lord!"

he said, with a shrug, and he turned again and walked slowly up the hill.

When Whitwell faced his daughter in the little sitting-room, whose low ceiling his hat almost touched as he stood before her, the storm had pa.s.sed with her, and her tear-drenched visage wore its wonted look of still patience.

"Did Jeff tell you why I sent for you, father?"

"No. But I knew it was trouble," said Whitwell, with a dignity which-his sympathy for her gave a countenance better adapted to the expression of the lighter emotions.

"I guess you were right about him," she resumed: She went on to tell in brief the story that Jeff had told her. Her father did not interrupt her, but at the end he said, inadequately: "He"s a comical devil. I knew about his gittin" that feller drunk. Mr. Westover told me when he was up here."

"Mr. Westover did!" said Cynthia, in a note of indignation.

"He didn"t offer to," Whitwell explained. "I got it out of him in spite of him, I guess." He had sat down with his hat on, as his absent-minded habit was, and he now braced his knees against the edge of the table.

Cynthia sat across it from him with her head drooped over it, drawing vague figures on the board with her finger. "What are you goin" to do?"

"I don"t know," she answered.

"I guess you don"t quite realize it yet," her father suggested, tenderly. "Well, I don"t want to hurry you any. Take your time."

"I guess I realize it," said the girl.

"Well, it"s a pootty plain case, that"s a fact," Whitwell conceded. She was silent, and he asked: "How did he come to tell you?"

"It"s what he came up for. He began to tell me at once. I was certain there was some trouble."

"Was it his notion to come, I wonder, or Mr. Westover"s?"

"It was his. But Mr. Westover told him to break off with me, and keep on with her, if she would let him."

"I guess that was pootty good advice," said Whitwell, letting his face betray his humorous relish of it. "I guess there"s a pair of "em."

"She was not playing any one else false," said Cynthia, bitterly.

"Well, I guess that"s so, too," her father a.s.sented. ""Ta"n"t so much of a muchness as you might think, in that light." He took refuge from the subject in an undirected whistle.

After a moment the girl asked, forlornly: "What should you do, father, if you were in my place?"

"Well, there I guess you got me, Cynthy," said her father. "I don"t believe "t any man, I don"t care how old he is, or how much experience he"s had, knows exactly how a girl feels about a thing like this, or has got any call to advise her. Of course, the way I feel is like takin" the top of his head off. But I d" know," he added, "as that would do a great deal of good, either. I presume a woman"s got rather of a ch.o.r.e to get along with a man, anyway. We a"n"t any of us much to brag on. It"s out o" sight, out o" mind, with the best of us, I guess."

"It wouldn"t be with Jackson--it wouldn"t be with Mr. Westover."

"There a"n"t many men like Mr. Westover--well, not a great many; or Jackson, either. Time! I wish Jackson was home! He"d know how to straighten this thing out, and he wouldn"t weaken over Jeff much--well, not much. But he a"n"t here, and you"ve got to act for yourself. The way I look at it is this: you took Jeff when you knowed what a comical devil he was, and I presume you ha"n"t got quite the same right to be disappointed in what he done as if you hadn"t knowed. Now mind, I a"n"t excusin" him. But if you knowed he was the feller to play the devil if he got a chance, the question is whether--whether--"

"I know what you mean, father," said the girl, "and I don"t want to shirk my responsibility. It was everything to have him come right up and tell me."

"Well," said Whitwell, impartially, "as far forth as that goes, I don"t think he"s strained himself. He"d know you would hear of it sooner or later anyway, and he ha"n"t just found out that he was goin" wrong. Been keepin" it up for the last three months, and writin" you all the while them letters you was so crazy to get."

"Yes," sighed the girl. "But we"ve got to be just to his disposition as well as his actions. I can see it in one light that can excuse it some.

He can"t bear to be put down, and I know he"s been left out a good deal among the students, and it"s made him bitter. He told me about it; that"s one reason why he wanted to leave Harvard this last year. He saw other young men made much of, when he didn"t get any notice; and when he had the chance to pay them back with a girl of their own set that was trying to make a fool of him--"

"That was the time for him to remember you," said Whitwell.

Cynthia broke under the defence she was trying to make. "Yes," she said, with an indrawn sigh, and she began to sob piteously.

The sight of her grief seemed to kindle her father"s wrath to a flame.

"Any way you look at him, he"s been a dumn blackguard; that"s what he"s been. You"re a million times too good for him; and I--"

She sobbed herself quiet, and then she said: "Father, I don"t like to go up there to-night. I want to stay here."

"All right, Cynthia. I"ll come down and stay with you. You got everything we want here?"

"Yes. And I"ll go up and get the breakfast for them in the morning.

There won"t be much to do."

"Dumn "em! Let "em get their own breakfast!" said Whitwell, recklessly.

"And, father," the girl went on as if he had not spoken, "don"t you talk to Mrs. Durgin about it, will you?"