Translator: MysticRain

03.

"What"s going on?!"

The people around them got up in an uproar, Zhao Mu stood in the center of the crowd, breathing heavily as he hugged Li Yu tightly, the guest"s hands were still shaking, the fabric of his crotch area had dye with dark watermark and a foul smell of urine was released from there. Li Yu subconsciously looked around, the manager furiously pried apart the wall of people as he walked towards the two.

"A Yu……" after finished provoking, Zhao Mu turned back and fondly rubbed against the nape of Li Yu"s neck, full of tenderness, "Let"s return home alright?……A Yu, let"s return to our home."
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At this moment, it was quite chaotic, the manager was fast approaching them, some people reacted and frivolously whistled toward Zhao Mu, "Hey, is this catching adultery in the act?"

Everyone was silent for a brief moment, then immediately followed with a roar of laughter, someone shouted: "Your f*ck buddy is having an affair? You fear of contracting a disease? Even bringing a knife to slash people ah! How about it, won"t you take me into consideration? Beauty?"

Li Yu knitted his brows, clenched his fists tightly, his complexion was very poor. Zhao Mu pulled him in silence, then turned around staggering and swaying as he grabbed the knife on the table. He pulled it out, then like a drunken man, he brandished the knife with a smile, his eyes were full of manic and madness.

"Who said I come here to catch adultery in the act?"He said gently, "My Ah Yu is not having an affair, he likes me the most, who f*cking said I come here to catch adultery in the act?"
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It was so gentle that there was almost a discernible vibrato.

The knife that was brandished, carried the "huhu" sound of the wind, Zhao Mu looked around, and narrowed his eyes, "who said it?"

It was as if once he had found out who said it he would then immediately stab that person.

Nonsense.

Zhao Mu had long been spoiled, how can he understand what was being humble and comity and what att.i.tude to deal with people. There was a narrow slit on the table, reckoned that they will have to pay for the damages, and in addition to causing trouble, there might even be the possibility of being beaten up. The people around them were still jeering, Li Yi felt his temple was throbbing painfully, he had no choice but to suddenly hugged Zhao Mu by the waist, exerted all strength in his hands to carried him on his shoulder. He squeezed through the seam in the crowd of people, and ran away. He was tensed that his muscle stretched taut, for fear of getting into trouble. Zhao Mu suddenly shouted out hysterically, "Why do we have to run? A Yu, they said you"re having an affair, they framed you, let me stab them a few times, please Ah Yu……I"m so angry……" He paused, then said, "Ah, I got it, you"re afraid that I"ll be beaten by them? Am I right? A Yu……I knew it, you loved me the most."

He laughed like a smugly satisfied child, as soon as they returned home he at once pulled Li Yu to bed with him. Li Yu didn"t want to, Zhao Mu then tied him up, pressed him down firmly under his body, and f*cked him very fiercely as if punishing him.

"I know you always loved me the most." He grabbed the hair in front of Li Yu"s forehead and forced him to lift up his head, completely ignoring Li Yu painful "hissing hissing" as he drew out air. While sucking the thin sweat on Li Yu"s collarbone, he fiercely rubbed against Li Yu"s sensitive spot, "You can only love me, love me the most."
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He suddenly had an inexplicable self-confidence, completely forgotten how he had begged piteously two days ago——it doesn"t matter, he already knew what to do.

He wasn"t afraid of committing a crime or afraid to kill, if Li Yu like someone else then he will just kill that person. If he gets caught, then he will drag Li Yu to die together with him.

Zhao Mu laughed frantically, exerted all his strength, even more, to pulled out and then thrusted in.

"A Yu, darling, you need to know, you"re mine."

He laughed as he uttered the cruel words of love.

"Except for me, n.o.body can love you this much. You can only have me."

You see, he was crazy like that, neurotic, insane, and paranoid. Perhaps for a lifetime, he can only have this kind of disgusting virtue, not a little bit worth to be missed.

Li Yu don"t know whether he has that something stock(holm) something syndrome like in the novel, but he really was like what Zhao Mu said, love him, love him the most, only love him, just like a drug addict that took drug, even knowing that you will ultimately slide into the abyss, you unable to stop even though you wanted to.
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Li Yu had comes to term, he can"t tell what he was thinking, he just felt reluctant to see Zhao Mu pitiful like that. After all, he loved Zhao Mu, loved him to his bones.

He went back to became a porter.

Zhao Mu became more and more abnormal like suddenly came to realization and no longer writing songs. The guqin was put in the corner of the house, with a thick layer of dust covered it. He followed Li Yu to work and also became a porter.

Li Yu was aware of his uneasiness, even if Zhao Mu had said with confidence, in some corner of his heart was still trembling. He insisted on following Li Yu, from morning till night, for fear that one day the soul of his man will be stolen by someone else. But how can he do the work of a porter? Zhao Mu"s strength was indeed not weak, it even could be called strange power, but his hands were always used for playing the stringed instruments.
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White, slender, delicate skin, with palms that doesn"t even have any callus. The coa.r.s.e wooden box cutted his skin, the rim of Li Yu"s eyes would turned red from heartache.

"I"ll take care of you." He said, "I can do it, you can stay at home, or play your guqin."

When Li Yu said that, Zhao Mu would laughed happily, then rubbed against the nape of Li Yu"s neck and act like a spoiled child, "Ah Yu, give me the medicine, I"m hurt."

But he had never absent from work.

Some people said Li Yu and Zhao Mu were not compatible. It was like insisted on putting a square into a circular groove, both sides had to be grounded of something away. However, no one thought, if the block really went in, they will then firmly stuck together and can"t be separated anymore.

It should have been like that.

Li Yu silently thought, he was the block of groove that had been grounded of many parts, Zhao Mu stubbornly wedged in, making both of them injured. Afterward, they firmly stuck together, in the end, it was like an abstract artwork, combined twisted edges and a rich sense of beauty. Some people would gasped in admiration, and some people sighed.
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Then, later on, Zhao Mu was gone.
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What remained was the groove that had all traces of intrusion. When it was combined it could reluctantly be considered pretty, but now it had become unbearably ugly.

Li Yu lacked the strength to live on.
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He got up, the room was chilling cold, there was no longer the usual smell of that madman who had been spoiled by him. The eyes of the man in the portrait were cold, it had became estranged dozens of times for no reason. Li Yu touched the frame of the portrait and talked to himself in a daze, this was not my A Mu, he was beautiful like that, beautiful like that……"

He started rummaging randomly through the house, tried to find the hiding place of the young man.

"Why don"t I see it?" He muttered, "why are you hiding from me……"
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The room was turned into a mess, but Li Yu couldn"t find it. He wanted to find Zhao Mu, even if it was just a photo.

They had been together for eleven years, yet even a photo couldn"t be found. Li Yu always dislike that developed photo was expensive, he always said they still have plenty of time ahead of them, it was not too late to take a picture when they are well-off.

But, when does time became too much?

For some matters, the past was the past, regrets will never disappear because of the person"s pain.
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After looking for a long time, Li Yu finally ecstatic when a photo emerged from some corner of the room that he was rummaging through. The old photo of four or five years ago had long faded, the photo of the handsome young man stood on the bridge in an ancient town, smiling at Li Yu like it was yesterday.

"A Yu, I love you so much."

Li Yu still remembered he said that at that time, that sweet voice asked him to agree to take a very expensive "polaroid" photo.

Zhao Mu love beauty, he had to take a souvenir photo, Li Yu stood at the side teased him and didn"t come forward to take it together.

"I love you!!" The young man"s earnest voice was still lingering in his ear, Li Yu touched the person in the photo, smiled happily.

As he smiled, tears slid down silently from the outer corner of his eyes.