WARNING: NSFW CONTENT

Shi Yan left by himself. He needed to find a place where he could slowly digest the words of He Nuo’s fifth brother — the impact of those words was really too great. All along, he had always thought that He Nuo was the one who had more to gain that year because he had escaped his revenge, so when he managed to get a handle on He Nuo afterwards, he wanted to take the opportunity to settle the debt that He Nuo owed him for the dispute they had in their first year. Until today, the guilt he felt towards He Nuo was because of the incident with the bicycle chain,not because of his fists and kicks.

Even though He Nuo was skinny in their first year, he still had a healthy body, and could still match up to Shi Yan; but after he returned from the village a year later, He Nuo’s body had turned frail and his empty sh.e.l.l of a body had a sickly quality to it. Shi Yan didn’t know how he had spent that year in the village, but he was certain that He Nuo must have suffered quite a bit there. Because the first time He Nuo began to urinate blood could be estimated to have happened when he was in the village.

Shi Yan had always worried himself over He Nuo’s kidneys, and had spent a lot of effort in ensuring his recovery — but he did so while regarding He Nuo as a friend on equal grounds. Yet, he couldn’t deny that he felt like he was doing He Nuo a favour. After all, He Nuo’s family didn’t seem to be too concerned with his condition, and He Nuo himself didn’t seem to have the ability to maintain his own health. But now the situation has reversed and had undergone an earth-shattering change; he wasn’t doing He Nuo a favour, He Nuo is only in this plight today because of him. No matter how much more he does, it wouldn’t be enough to make up for the healthy body that He Nuo had lost.

He parked his bike at the bottom of his building. Shi Yan walked amongst the cold night winds. He took off the scarf around his neck and unb.u.t.toned his collar, or else the burning sensation in his chest would suffocate him. He walked until he was so tired he couldn’t move anymore; he walked until his whole body was freezing; then that beautiful boy walked past Shi Yan before his eyes.

When we met for the first time in our first year of high school, he saw my contempt, but silently continued to clean;

In our second year, he kneeled in front of me while enduring the ridicule of others, “Can you please beat me up to vent your anger, then forgive me?”

From then on he would calmly fulfill our appointments: that horrible wound in physical education cla.s.s, his guilt when he wore three layers of pants, the bruised and battered body that presented itself before my eyes, then I carried the trembling him…….

In our third year, we fell out because of the anger from being betrayed – but now that I think about it, how could that have been betrayal, why did he dare to be friends with me? Even though it was because of my rejection that he once again had to endure violence, what hung on his lips were still “I was the one who lied to you, it’s my fault for making you angry.”

Shi Yan couldn’t help but lift his head up and control the heat in his eyes, while his ears were still ringing from He Nuo’s words that were filled with grat.i.tude, “You are the one who treats me the best!”

That night, the protagonist of Shi Yan’s erotic dreams changed. Shi Yan’s development was completely normal, and he had already showed signs of seminal emissions when he was about 14 or 15 years old. In the past, he would purely fall asleep exhausted from the day’s excitement and only discover that his pants were wet after he awoke; but as he grew holder, he began to have dreams. The naked body of an obscure woman would appear in his dream, and Shi Yan felt like he would hold that body before feeling an extremely pleasurable sensation that resulted from an e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.i.o.n.

In the past, Shi Yan had never been able to see the woman’s face or the specific structure of her body clearly. In short, it all just seemed very cloudy and misty to him though it felt good to the touch, so he could climax; then afterwards, Shi Yan would close his eyes to imagine how that woman looked like while he m.a.s.t.u.r.b.a.t.ed, but all he could imagine were the outer curves of her body. Yet tonight, Shi Yan was entwined with this body in his dreams. He was eager to hold her tight in his arms, to embrace her, while his lower region kept rubbing against that body as it randomly penetrated in between the two legs. At the moment he shot it all out, Shi Yan saw the person in his arms who had a layer of frost on his lips, and his gentle and glossy eyebrows — it was He Nuo.

Shi Yan wasn’t frightened by his erotic dream. His father has always recommended Shi Yan to read the large number of physical health books they had at home, as well as the books written by popular doctors on topics related to the questions on teenagers’ development that he had ordered. So Shi Yan knew a long time ago that seminal emission and erotic dreams were a normal part of his development. As for the appearance of He Nuo…it was probably because he kept He Nuo in his mind all day. Shi Yan looked at it from a scientific perspective to understand this problem and didn’t have the least bit of doubt or sense of indecency.

Shi Yan only understood this erotic dream of his when he recalled it after he had confirmed his feelings for He Nuo. If any of his other buddies’ faces had appeared in his dream, then his erotic dream would have probably turned into a complete nightmare. But he didn’t a.s.sociate the dream with any wicked thoughts at all because the one who had appeared in it was He Nuo — someone who was as pure as a crystal.

After he had endured the cold winds for an entire night, Shi Yan caught a cold that would usually only occur once in a hundred years, and he was slightly feverish as well. Yet, this was a major incident in his parents’ eyes. His mother blamed his friends for calling him out right after New Year’s Eve which was why he fell sick from fatigue; while his Dad said that he had caught the cold at his grandma’s house. In short, Shi Yan had to lie in his own room as he ate fruits and watch boring TV shows. When the number of people who came to their house to give their New Year greetings in the afternoon reduced and his parents came in to measure his temperature, Shi Yan got up from his bed and leaned back in a slovenly manner, “Mum, have you ever been to He Nuo’s house?”

“He Nuo? Who’s that? I don’t know who he is?”

“In my first year, New Year’s.” Shi Yan reminded.

“Oh, ohoh,” his mother smacked her head, “Are you talking about the house of the student who fought with you? I did go there to look for his parents. He’s such an ill-bred child, if I didn’t look for his parents, what use would there be if I only looked for his teacher?”

“What did you say when you were there?” Shi Yan peeled an orange and didn’t even raise his head.

“What else could I have said? Of course I had to teach their parents a lesson. They’re his parents and yet they brought their child up to become that kind of character, aren’t they ashamed? They’re just cra.s.s blue-collar workers who can’t discipline their children well yet they still gave birth to a bunch of them. That family is really the definition of “has a father to give birth but no mother to guide the children”, yet he still gave birth to another two after his wife died.

“He Nuo’s a stepson?” Shi Yan asked in surprise.

“I don’t know if your schoolmate is a stepson, but I heard that his current wife gave birth to two kids, so if your schoolmate isn’t the youngest or second youngest then he’s not her son bei. But it’s not like it’ll make a difference either way, just look at that father of his, what good woman would marry him? He just looked for a random one from the countryside who doesn’t have much culture.”

“Did you see He Nuo that day?”

“I saw him. He was called out by his parents, and he felt guilty the moment he saw me so he didn’t dare to shirk any responsibility.”

“Shirk what responsibility?” Shi Yan doesn’t believe that He Nuo was someone who would shirk his responsibilities.

“Well I scared them a little, I said that he kicked you so hard that you could suffer greatly in the future. He was frightened to death by what I had said, yet that uncultured mother of his actually tried to speak up for him. After I lost my temper, his father slapped him immediately, then I left.” Shi Yan’s mother proudly showed off her capabilities, “After I threw them some threats, those parents of him were so scared that they even came to beg me afterwards.”

Shi Yan jumped up in an instant. He threw the orange in his hand onto the fruit tray which caused all the fruits on the tray to bounce and tumble in a disorderly mess, “How could you do that? Did you know that we didn’t get into a fight at all? I was the one who bullied him at first and beat him up!”

His parents were stunned by his sudden fury; they had never seen their son like this before, and their short-circuited brain couldn’t understand the meaning behind their son’s words. His father was the first one to recover from his shock. He patted Shi Yan and asked him to sit down, “What’s wrong? Did your mother make a mistake? But didn’t it happen a long time ago? Why are you bringing it up again? Did that student cause trouble for you?”

“He Nuo will never cause trouble for me, he wouldn’t even tell me about what had happened. It’s just that what Mum did was really too much, it was really, really…….” Shi Yan couldn’t continue. The words he wanted to say were ‘despicable’ and ‘shameless’.

“But I only went cause you were bullied ma, don’t forget that you had to get st.i.tches for it.” His mother defended herself.

St.i.tches! One st.i.tch of his actually demanded He Nuo to compensate with his hematuria! Shi Yan got even more angry, but he couldn’t vent his anger anywhere. It’s not like he didn’t understand what kind of person his own mother was; she was used to ordering other people about arrogantly and had always disliked the poor but loved the rich — you could tell just from the buddies he hung out with. So, this was definitely something she was capable of. But the root cause of it all was still him; if he hadn’t provoked He Nuo and put He Nuo in a spot, how could the incident where he had abused his power to bully He Nuo have occurred?

“Go out ba, I want to sleep.” Shi Yan chased them away.

“The thermometer, let me see if you still have a fever.”

“It’s not like I’ll die!”

Shi Yan’s father hurriedly dragged his mother out.

During dinner, Shi Yan remained silent with a sullen face. So his father said to his mother, “Why did you do that? It’s just a fight between children, why did you have to meddle in their business? How hostile can they be towards each other…did you need to go all the way to their house to look for them and do something so disgraceful? Now Xiao Yan has lost all his face.”

“But the moment I looked for them, his parents believed me straight away, so you can tell that he’s usually not a good kid anyway……”

“Pa”, Shi Yan slammed his chopsticks on the table, then stood up and returned to his room.

T/N: Ok so I just realised that the next 5 chaps are gonna be super intense emotionally, so I’m crossing my fingers that I can get it out by tomorrow. Not looking forward to it janslfjanfljasf