"Good, " Justin murmured, and his eyes drifted shut again. Beyond that Grant did not attempt to go. Giraud had limited the questioning to the visit with Jordan and the possibility of Justin"s involvement in Ari"s disappearance. To rea.s.sure Justin there would be no more questions would be dangerous. There might be. To encourage him to talk, when they were likely being taped-was very dangerous, tranked as he was. Giraud had asked: "How do you feel about young Ari?" And Justin had said, with all his thresholds flat: "Sorry for her. " There was motion in the gla.s.s-walled booth. Grant looked up, saw Denys Nye in the room with the guards, saw them exchange words, saw the guards come and open the door into the recovery cell to let Denys in.

Grant gave Denys a hard look, locked his arms across Justin, and bent close to his ear: "Justin. Ser Denys is here, easy, I have you, I won"t leave. "

Justin was aware. His eyes opened.

Denys walked very quietly for so large a man. He came close and stopped, leaning near, speaking very softly. "They"ve found Ari. She"s all right. "

Justin"s chest moved in a gasp after air. "Is that true?" he asked. "Grant, is he telling the truth?"

Grant glared at Denys, at a round, worried face, and gave up a little of his anger. "I think he may be. " He tightened his arms again so Justin could feel his presence.

"It"s true, " Denys said and leaned closer, keeping his voice very, very quiet. "Justin, I"m terribly sorry. Truly I am. We"ll make this up to you. " Justin"s heart was hammering under his hand. "Easy, " Grant said, his own heart racing while he sorted Denys" words for content. And then because he had never felt so much unadulterated anger in his entire life. "How are you going to do that, ser?" he said to Denys softly, so softly. "The child is safe. What about the rest of Reseune"s resources? You"re fools, fools, ser. You"ve risked a mind whose limits you don"t even know, you"ve persecuted him all his life, and you treat him as if he were the perpetrator of every harm in Reseune-when he"s never, ser. You"ve risked a mind whose limits you don"t even know, you"ve persecuted him all his life, and you treat him as if he were the perpetrator of every harm in Reseune-when he"s never, never, in never, in his entire life-done harm to any human being, when Yanni Schwartz could tell you they took him his entire life-done harm to any human being, when Yanni Schwartz could tell you they took him off off real-time because he couldn"t stand people suffering. Where"s Reseune"s vast expertise in psychology, when it can"t tell that he isn"t capable of harming real-time because he couldn"t stand people suffering. Where"s Reseune"s vast expertise in psychology, when it can"t tell that he isn"t capable of harming anyone, anyone, not even the people who make his life not even the people who make his life h.e.l.l?" h.e.l.l?"

"Grant, " Justin murmured, "Grant, -"

Denys" brow furrowed. "No, " he said in a hushed voice, "I know, I know, I"m sorry is too little, and far too late. Grant is quite right. You"re going home now, you"re going home. Please. Believe me. We did find Ari. She"s in hospital, she had a fall, but everything"s all right. She ran away on her own, disguised herself-it was a childish prank, absolutely nothing you had anything to do with, we know that. I won"t stay here, I know I have no business here, but I felt I had to tell you Ari"s all right. I believed you"d want to know that because you don"t don"t want any harm to her, and G.o.d knows you deserve some courtesy after this. I mean it. I"ll make this up somehow, I promise that. I let too much go on for want any harm to her, and G.o.d knows you deserve some courtesy after this. I mean it. I"ll make this up somehow, I promise that. I let too much go on for security"s security"s sake, and it"s not going to go on happening. I promise that, too. " He put a hand on Grant"s shoulder. "Grant, there"s a group of meds coming here. They"ll take him the tunnel route, over to your Residency, they"ll take him home, if that"s what he wants. Or he can rest here till he recovers. Whatever he wants. " sake, and it"s not going to go on happening. I promise that, too. " He put a hand on Grant"s shoulder. "Grant, there"s a group of meds coming here. They"ll take him the tunnel route, over to your Residency, they"ll take him home, if that"s what he wants. Or he can rest here till he recovers. Whatever he wants. "

"Home, " Grant said. "Is that right, Justin? Do you want to go home now?"

Justin nodded faintly. "I want to go home. "

Carefully enunciated. More self-control than a moment ago. Justin"s arm twitched and lifted and he laid it on his stomach, in the same careful way, return of conscious control.

"I promise you, " Denys said tightly. "No more of this. "

Then Denys left, anger in the att.i.tude of his body.

Grant hugged Justin and laid his head against Justin"s, editing the tension out of his own muscles, because Justin could read that. Azi-mind. Quiet and steady.

"Was Denys here?" Justin asked.

"He just left, " Grant said. "Just a little while and you"re going home. I say it"s true. They found Ari, it wasn"t your fault, they know that. You can rest now. Wake up at your own speed. I"m not going to leave you, not even for a minute. "

Justin heaved a sigh. And was quiet then.

xi Ari rode back home in the bus, just for that little distance, and she argued with uncle Denys until he let her walk from the front door herself, holding his hand, with the other arm in a sling; but after the ride, it was almost longer, she thought, than she was going to be able to make. Her knees were getting weak and she was sweating under her blouse, that they had had to cut because of the cast, even to get it on.

She was not going to be out in public in her nightgown and her robe. She was going to walk, herself. She was determined on that.

But she was terribly glad to see the inside of uncle Denys" apartment, and to see Nelly there, and Florian and Catlin, all looking worried and so glad to see her. Even Seely looked happy.

She felt like crying, she was so glad to see them. But she didn"t. She said: "I want my bed. " And uncle Denys got her there, with the last strength that she had, while Nelly fluttered ahead of them.

Nelly had her bed turned down. Poo-thing was there where he belonged. The pillows were fluffed up. It felt so good when she lay down.

"Let me help you out of your clothes, " Nelly said.

"No, " she said, "just let me rest a while, Nelly. " And uncle Denys said that was a good idea.

"I want a soft drink, Nelly, " she said, while uncle Denys was leaving. "I want Florian and Catlin. "

So Nelly went out; and in a little while Florian and Catlin came in, very quiet, very sober, bringing her soft drink.

"We feel terrible, " Florian said. And they both looked it.

They had been with her at the hospital. They had been so scared, both of them, and they had stayed with her and looked like they could jump at anybody who looked wrong. But finally they had had to go home, because she told them to, uncle Denys said she should, they were so scared and so upset, and they needed to settle down. So she woke up enough to tell them it wasn"t their fault and to send them home.

I"ll be there in a little while, she had said.

So she was.

Dr. Ivanov said she was lucky she had only broken her arm, and not her head. And she felt lucky about it too. She kept seeing the sky and the ground, and feeling the jolt in her bones.

Uncle Denys said she was lucky too, that Horse could have killed her, and he was awfully upset.

That was true. But she told uncle Denys it wasn"t Horse"s fault, he just sort of moved. "Horse is all right, isn"t he?" she had asked.

"Horse is fine, " uncle Denys had said. "He"s just fine. You"re the one we"re worried about. "

That was nice. People generally weren"t, not in any nice way. Dr. Ivanov was kind to her, the nurses gave her soft drinks, Florian and Catlin hung around her until she sent them away. The one thing she had not gotten out of it was uncle Giraud: uncle Giraud had not come at all, but she was too tired to want him there anyway, it was all too much work.

Now Florian and Catlin were back and she was safe in her bed and she really, truly, felt just sort of-away from everything. Quiet. She was glad people were being nice, not because she couldn"t Work them, but because she was so tired and it took so much, and she just wanted to lie there and not hurt awhile, after she had drunk a little of her soft drink.

"It"s not your fault, " she said to Florian and Catlin. "It was my idea, wasn"t it?"

"We shouldn"t have let you, " Florian said.

"Yes, you should have, " she said, frowning real quick. "You do what I tell you and that"s what I told you. Isn"t that so?"

"Yes, " Catlin said after a moment. "That"s so. "

They both looked happier then.

She slept all afternoon, with her arm raised in a sling the way Dr. Ivanov said she had to, to keep her hand from swelling. She didn"t think that would work, because she always tossed around a lot, but it did: she went right off to sleep, waked up once when Nelly told her to take a pill, and went back to sleep, because it was her bed and her room, and the pills that kept her from hurting also made her very drowsy.

But Nelly woke her up for supper, and she had to eat with her left hand. Dr. Ivanov had said things about left-right dominance to her and said how she mustn"t do any writing until she got out of the cast, but she could do everything else. Dr. Ivanov said she should have a Scriber to help her with her lessons, just like his, and she liked that idea.

He said that she ought to be in the cast about three weeks, because he had done a lot of special things to help it heal fast, and it was going to be good as new. He said she was going to do gym exercises after, to make her arm strong again. She agreed with that. Having a broken arm was an adventure, but she didn"t want it to do anything permanent.

It was kind of interesting to have the cast and all, and to have everyone fussing over her. The way people changed when they were anxious was interesting. She thought a lot about it when she was awake.

She had her supper, things she could eat with her fingers, and she wanted Florian and Catlin to stay in her room, because she was awake now. But uncle Denys came in and said they could come in a little while, but right then he had to have a Talk with her.

"I don"t want to, " she said, and pouted a little, because she really hurt, and it wasn"t fair of uncle Denys, uncle Denys had been nice all day, and now everybody was going to go back the other way before she was ready for it, she saw it coming.

"It won"t be a long one, " uncle Denys said, shutting the door, "and I"m not even going to mention about your going down to the Town. "

That wasn"t what she expected. So she was curious and uncomfortable at the same time, while he pulled Nelly"s chair over: she was glad he wasn"t going to sit on the bed, because she was just settled and he was so heavy.

"Ari, " he said, leaning forward with his elbows on his knees and his face very anxious. "Ari, I want to tell you why everyone was so upset, but this isn"t about the Town: it"s about how important you are, and how there are people-there are people who might want to hurt you, if they got into Reseune. That"s why you scared Security so bad. "

That was serious. It clicked right in with the Safety in the Halls lecture and the fact that she was the only kid she knew who had two Security azi for company. She was interested and scared, because it was like it sent out little hooks into a whole lot of things. "So who are they?"

"People who would have hurt your predecessor. Do you know why they put PR on a CIT number?"

"Because they"re a Parental Replicate. "

"Do you know what that means?"

She nodded, definitely. "That means they"re a twin to their own maman or their papa. "

"Just any kind of twin?"

"No. Identical. "

"Identical all the way down to their genesets, right?

She nodded.

"You don"t have a PR on your number. But you could have.

That was confusing. And scary. It didn"t make sense at all.

"Pay attention. Don"t think about it. Let me guide you through this, Ari. Your maman, Jane Stra.s.sen, had a very good friend, who died, who died very suddenly. Reseune was going to make another one of her, which, you know, means making a baby. Jane said that she wanted that baby, she wanted to bring it up herself, for her own, because she didn"t want that baby to go to anybody else. She did it for her friend, who died. And when she got that baby she loved it so much it was hers. Do you understand me, Ari?"

There was a cold lump in her throat. She was cold all over, right down to her fingers.

"Do you understand me, Ari?"

She nodded.

"Jane is is truly your maman. That"s so, nothing can change that, Ari. Your maman is whoever loves you and takes care of you and teaches you like Jane did. " truly your maman. That"s so, nothing can change that, Ari. Your maman is whoever loves you and takes care of you and teaches you like Jane did. "

"Why did she leave me?"

"Because she had to do something only she could do. Because, next to the first Ari herself, Jane Stra.s.sen is the best one to do it. Also, Ari, Jane had another daughter-a grown daughter named Julia, who was terribly jealous of the time you took; and Julia had a daughter too, named Gloria Stra.s.sen, who"s your age. Julia made things very hard for your maman, because Julia was being very difficult, and Julia was a.s.signed to Fargone too. Your maman finally had to see about her other daughter, and her granddaughter, because they were terribly jealous and upset about her being your maman. She didn"t want to, but that was the way it was. So she went to Fargone and she took them with her because she wasn"t going to leave them here where they could be mean to you. She told me to take care of you, she told me she would come back if she could, but it"s a terribly long way, Ari, and your maman"s health isn"t too good. She"s quite old, you know, and it would be awfully dangerous for her now. So that"s why your maman left, and why she knew she might not be able to come back: she"d done everything for her friend who died, to start with. And she knew she"d have to go away before you were grown. She thought it would be easy, when she started. But she really got to be your maman, and she got to love you not just because of the Ari who died, but because you"re you"re Ari, and you"re Ari, and you"re you, you, and she loves you just because, that"s all. " and she loves you just because, that"s all. "

Tears started rolling down her face. She didn"t even know she was crying till she felt that. Then she moved the wrong arm to wipe them and had to use the other hand, which was awkward.

"She can"t have you at Fargone, " uncle Denys said, "because, for one thing, she has Julia and Gloria there. And because you"re you, you, you"re Ari, and your genemother was what she was, and because you have enemies. You could grow up safe here. There were teachers to teach you and people to take care of you-not always the best; I know I"m not the best at bringing up a little girl, but I really have tried, Ari, and I go on trying. I just figure it"s time I explained some things to you, because you"re old enough to try to go places on your own, that"s pretty plain, isn"t it? You might run into people who might accidentally say the wrong thing to you, and most of all I didn"t want you to hear any of this from some stranger down in the Town. A lot of people know who you are, and you"re getting old enough to start asking questions-like why your name is Emory and not Stra.s.sen, to start with. " you"re Ari, and your genemother was what she was, and because you have enemies. You could grow up safe here. There were teachers to teach you and people to take care of you-not always the best; I know I"m not the best at bringing up a little girl, but I really have tried, Ari, and I go on trying. I just figure it"s time I explained some things to you, because you"re old enough to try to go places on your own, that"s pretty plain, isn"t it? You might run into people who might accidentally say the wrong thing to you, and most of all I didn"t want you to hear any of this from some stranger down in the Town. A lot of people know who you are, and you"re getting old enough to start asking questions-like why your name is Emory and not Stra.s.sen, to start with. "

She hated hated to feel stupid. And that was a big one, a terribly, terribly big one. Of course people had different names, a lot of people had different names. She thought it was who maman picked to make her baby with. to feel stupid. And that was a big one, a terribly, terribly big one. Of course people had different names, a lot of people had different names. She thought it was who maman picked to make her baby with.

You got into trouble, making up your mind why things were that grown-ups wouldn"t tell you.

Why can"t I be Stra.s.sen? she remembered asking maman.

Because you"re Emory, maman had said, because, that"s why. I"m Stra.s.sen. Look at Tommy Carnath. His maman is Johanna Morley. Grown-ups figure these things out.

Her stomach turned over, suddenly, and she felt sweaty and cold.

"Please, " she said, "uncle Denys, I"m going to be sick. Call Nelly. "

Denys did, real quick. And Nelly got her arm unhooked and got her to the bathroom, where she felt that way for a long time, but nothing happened. She only wished she could be, because she hurt inside and out.

Nelly got her a gla.s.s of fizzy stuff for her stomach, and it was awful, but she drank it. Then she felt a little better, and lay against her pillows while Nelly stroked her face and her hair a long, long time and worried about her.

Nelly was the same. Nelly was the way Nelly had always been to her. She guessed it was true maman was really still her maman, but she was not sure who she she was anymore. She wanted to find out. Uncle Denys knew, and she wanted to ask him, but she was not sure she wanted any more yet. was anymore. She wanted to find out. Uncle Denys knew, and she wanted to ask him, but she was not sure she wanted any more yet.

Uncle Denys came back in finally, and he came and patted her shoulder, the good one. "Are you all right, sweet? Are you going to be all right?"

Maman called her that. Uncle Denys never had. Ari bit her lip till it hurt more than that did.

"Ari?"

"What other things was I going to notice?"

"That there was a very famous woman at Reseune who had the same name as you, " uncle Denys said, and pulled the chair over, so Nelly got back, and took some stuff off the night-table and took it to the bath. "That you look just like her when she was a little girl, and her pictures are all through the tapes you really need to study. She was very, very smart, Ari, smarter than anyone. She wasn"t your maman. You aren"t her daughter. You"re something a lot closer. How close we don"t know yet, but you"re a very extraordinary little girl, and I know Jane is very, very proud of you. "

He patted her shoulder then. Nelly had come back through and left. Now he got up again. She didn"t care. She was still thinking and it was like her brains were mush.

"Ari, I"m going to have Florian and Catlin stay all night in your room, if you want. I think you"d like that, wouldn"t you?"

She didn"t know how she was going to tell Florian and Catlin she had been that stupid. They wouldn"t stop liking her: they were her azi, and they had to like her. But they were going to be upset. They were going to be upset by her being upset. So she swiped the back of her left hand across her face and tried to stop sniveling.

"Ari?"

"Does Nelly know?"

"Nelly knows. Nelly doesn"t understand, but Nelly knows, she always has. "

That made her awfully mad at Nelly.

"Nelly was your maman"s, Ari. Your maman put an awfully heavy load on Nelly, telling her as much as she did, and telling Nelly she had to keep that secret. Nelly is very loyal to your maman. Of course she would. "

"Ollie knew too. "

"Ollie knew. Do you want me to send Florian and Catlin to spend the night? They can have pallets over in the corner. They won"t mind at all. "

"Do they know?"

"No. Only your maman"s people knew. They"re yours. "

She felt better about that. At least they they hadn"t been laughing at her. "Does Amy Carnath know?" hadn"t been laughing at her. "Does Amy Carnath know?"

Uncle Denys frowned and took a second about that. "Why does Amy Carnath knowing matter?"