Fish just wanted to try translating something that wasn’t HE for once (ง ´͈౪`͈)ว

Also will just combine into bunches for a longer read~

Chapter 2

At the terminal and getting off the bus, it’s already dusk. We walk slowly walk back.

Turning my head to look at his side, the golden sunset smeared on his face, softening the outlines. You can clearly see the slight fluff on both sides of his nose. Hubby’s hair is heavy, except his neck and chin stubble, even his cheeks and throat have fine hairs. I have been trying to convince him to shave these two places, but he refused. He was afraid that after shaving, the beard roots will harden, then the lower part of the whole face will turn blue-green, like wearing half of a mask.

When I got home, the suitcase was in the living room. He went to pack. I pretended not to see. What was his and what was mine, he could always tell.

Chapter 3

Hubby is laying on his back in bed, and I lay on him. I move up and put my face on his face.

He probably enjoyed it too, and rubbed his cheek on my face.

For me, hugging is more important than having s.e.x. s.e.x can only be done out of pa.s.sion, but embracing comes out of wholehearted trust and love, opening up yourself without any defense.

Skin-to-skin, ear-to-mane, these two phrases are well-constructed.

T/N: The phrases are 肌肤相亲、耳鬃厮磨. But fish wasn’t sure of the English equivalents…

Chapter 4

From 1999 to 2006, seven years of time, loving this person seemed to have become a part of my own body. It was a natural existence and sometimes could not even be felt. But when it really came to the time of cutting off, there will be reluctance, pain, and the urge to cry.

Hubby asked me if I would like someone else in the future, which was a very heavy topic. I only dare to make jokes about it. “Yes,” I said, “Maybe one day I would suddenly start a fire with other people’s thunder, and then dry firewood, and let it go for thousands of miles.”

Hubby was amused by me. “I know what you like, mature and steady.” All in all, they have to be Optimus Prime in front of me, for sure.

This sentence has been said by some cla.s.smates before, “In the future, you must find someone who can hold you down.” Maybe it’s because sometimes I’m too childish. When I get acquainted with my dormitory cla.s.smates, I often play tricks on them. Fortunately, n.o.body cares, they just laugh helplessly.

“If I really like, then there’s no helping it. If I don’t like and you want to chase me, you should not only be mature and steady, but also be handsome and rich.”

Chapter 5

I have thought about this question myself, I don’t know what kind of person I will like in the future. But thinking about it, it always concludes to my hubby, my mind always thinks of his face. I can’t imagine anyone else. If it’s not this person, it’s not possible. Sometimes it really makes people feel desperate.

When I think about the wedding gift, my favorite phrase, “May the years be quiet and the world be stable.” will be stuck on the gift for him, because I can’t use them anymore.

Chapter 6

I still have many more words to say to him, “If one day you can’t go on, come and see me, I’ll wait.” Bury the seeds in his heart, make him feel guilty, and let him always think of my good.

Let him know that he still has a way to go back, so he will never feel grievance.

When the opportunity arises, the seed will take root and germinate, and then I will harvest it.

But I also want to say to him, “Since you decided to get married, don’t think about the past, concentrate on life.” It’s much easier to integrate into the mainstream, approved lifestyle. How is it not another kind of happiness?

What’s more, another woman is involved in it. Counting up, she’s the most innocent one.

I wavered between the two ideas, choiceless.

Chapter 7

Eventually, I selfishly sent him a text message, “I’ll wait until thirty-five years old. If you don’t come then, I’ll find someone else.”

I am not innocent, but I am not guilty.

I just like someone.

Life and death are the most tragic poems. Life and death and parting are major events, which are beyond our control. How small we are compared to the outside world! But we say, “I want to be with you forever, and I will never be separated from you all my life.” As if we are the masters.

—— Zhang Ai Ling/ Eileen Chang

Chapter 8

Half a month more, and he will get married. It’s been a week since he moved out. We haven’t seen each other again. He hasn’t answered my text. I don’t know what’re his feelings after seeing it.

At this point today, I have no complaints, because I have already realized, harboring the mindset of “One more day is also something”. The happiness of these years was stolen, and now it is time to return them.

I don’t want to point out that this society is unfair, what’s the use?

I have always been a cowardly person. I have no determination and courage to be a fighter, so I hide in the corner and try not to be noticed.

Chapter 9

Anyhow, he’s also the deputy manager of the department. On the day he moved out, there were still many people to help him, his subordinates, the moving company. I sat on the sofa in the living room and watched. Among the people coming in and out, I was very conspicuous. Someone asked me to give a hand. I pretended I didn’t hear it. I tried my best to control it, but I couldn’t help my face turning ugly.

Those subordinates probably thought our relationship was bad. After a few jokes, they saw that I didn’t answer and laughed perfunctorily, so they stopped caring me.

Television and movies are often shown, that when leaving, the extra people will disappear automatically, leaving only two protagonists.

But until the last time, all the things had been moved. He had to clean up his new house. The subordinates were pestering him to invite them to dinner. From the start, we never had a chance to speak alone.

Chapter 10

I sat in the sofa, carefully capturing the movement downstairs, heard his voice, and heard the car start. I stood up and leaned down on the balcony, the car is slowly driving away.

I watched it drive up the road, see its view be blocked by other buildings, watching it until it can’t be seen again.

Cleaning up all the paper and garbage he left behind, and finding a lot of clothes to soak in the basin, and wipe all the gla.s.s again.

I had to find something to do.