I have dreamed of my desires, some inappropriate scenes I am ashamed to say; I have seen failures, committed sins for my personal little pleasures. But still I am not tired of dreaming. People get exhausted from being not able to reach their goals one too many times. I am no different. I was tired from the events of life, it was hard to imagine a light at the end. I felt like I am not digging through a tunnel but a hole.

"To dream is to forget and forgetting doesn"t weigh on us..."

I am never gonna stop fighting. The promise I made to Frank; nothing"s stopping me.

-I want you to eat with me. Why won"t you?

-Look honey, I have already told you I have had my dinner,- It was a lie. I knew that "dinner" has probably upgraded from looking like some leftovers to actual leftovers by now.

-...okay.

-...(Sighs)how"s the food anyway? I am not a good cook, probably tastes much worse than what your Dad makes,- Cooking was my one and only leisure interest when I was still with them. But like every other thing in my life it faded away.

-It"s good...better than Dad"s.

-Oh really?

-Yeah, but..

-..but?

-Not like Mom"s.

-...(laughs)yeah...okay maybe next time I"ll try something else.

-Right? You are going to make me something else?

-Hmm, maybe. But you are going to have to go to sleep after eating, deal?

-But I want to play with you all night. You"re so nice to me.

-No sweetie. Tomorrow"s a big day. Your Dad will stay with you all the time tomorrow. So you need to get plenty of rest to have a fun day.

-Oh. Is there a holiday or something special tomorrow?

-Ughh...yes. You could say that. There was...a reason for his day off, I believe.

-So, that means you"re also free!

-I don"t think..

-You need to come here. We"ll have so fun together.

-That is not...actually...certain. You see I am a police and we don"t get to have this holiday,- I was hiding behind something I could care less then. But it was already enough how much I have gotten myself into their life.

-...oh.

-I know you understand how mean big policeman can be. And they are my boss.

-It"s alright. I know of them...I"m done here. Thank you for making food for me.

-Look, Jane. I am sorry. It may not be tomorrow but I promise I will come back here and cook dinner for you some other day.

-...

-Hey sweetheart? I promise. Next time? Okay?

-Yes.

-Yes? Now tell me something? Why do you like ramen so much? Your Mom"s speciality I think.

-Yes. She used to make so tasty ramen. We both loved it.

-I see...okay, you go to bed. Let me clean up here first then I will come.

-Can I help you? I am used to doing dishes.

-Oh? Are you? Do you help your Dad?

-Yes.

-Wow, aren"t you a cute little helper? But thanks. I should be done in a few minutes. Please go to your room.

-Hmm.

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-Aren"t you tired Jane?

-A little...yeah.

-I think we"re gonna have ourselves a story. Where"s your..

-Tell me about you.

-...me? There"s nothing interesting to tell. Just boring. Unpleasant.

-But you are a hero. My mom said that police are a big hero of our society. You must have too much fun to takedown bad guys.

-...What do you think?

-I don"t know...but I like you. You are a good girl Sel.

-Ohh(chuckles)thanks Sweetie.

-...good night.

-Yeah; good night.

-...

-...

-You"re coming right? To see me again; n.o.body does. Everybody thinks I"m not well. So they keep away from us. You think I am crazy too?

-What? What...no. Why would I think of something that stupid?,- I won"t say I totally understood what she had said. But I felt it was about the absence of her mother in her life. Which might have resulted in some incidents.

-Hmm. I know. Please come back tomorrow.

-...(a kiss on her cheeks)...go to sleep now,- If it was a dream I would have probably wanted to stay here longer but it was not. I was late, so I kept telling myself. The truth was in my sweetest dream I would have already achieved everything. So I wanted that to be as real as it could get.

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I heard a car. Jane was sleeping and that means I must have dozed off after her. I couldn"t comprehend but there was a female voice. And then the sound of boots. It was slowly coming closer...